There were times when I questioned who I was following because so far nothing materialized, only purging, purging, purging with short intervals of relief.
The past two days I was shown my new life. It is over the top with my stomach in my throat. I can't do this, neither do I want to do this. But the universe has spoken. There is no negotiating. Its way over my head and that's where its supposed to be so that I will not walk by my own strength.
I will be traveling with my son in a truck and eventually I will get my truck driving license so that we both can alternate driving and go longer distances. I am integrating all of this and today I am feeling kind of blah. I was wondering whether the stress of being on the road so much would get to me. The universe responded with a dream of an erected penis, meaning, I will have the strength and stamina to do this.
We are down to our last penny. We have things for sale but they aren't selling. I am not worried. Its not my problem. I am here to enjoy the ride and I am starting to.
I meet people and they truly don't want to give up control because they are afraid of losing it all, and they will. I am glad that part is over. A new game is being arranged for me.