The mind builds structures. All my structures have fallen. New ones don't even have the chance to get erected. I have gone beyond the mind.
I cycle through a lot of feeling: death, illusion, insanity, and so many more. I always feel different, unstable, things seem to move all the time. What's here one moment is gone the next.
As I carry more light I can't carry a thought. Thought is denser than light. Bye, bye thoughts.
I am starting to behave as light. The fear of how I am going to provide for myself or live on this still dense planet isn't there anymore. I am protected.
Anything that has to do with planning gives me indigestion. If I don't relax my heart starts to race. I can't introduce density to my body anymore or my body will react immediately with symptoms of a heart attack and headaches.
It's imperative to be present and awake.