My personal f**n groundhog day.

I am so furious, beyond rage.  I am being given a chance to re-experience events that I have given power to.  And I have done that for many years but its still not enough.

I wanted to move on, now I have to face it again.  Zig and zag it goes.  I don’t know where I stand. It feels like I am reliving the same day over and over, and I can’t get out.  I have had enough!!

I am not supposed to do anything except observe whatever comes up.  I can't be pro-active because all my energy is vested in this process, so I am re-active.  I can't be mental about it.  I have to feel it.  Can you hear me scream?