You hold on to illusion for dear life because you believe its real. What is it going to take for you to let go of illusion? You can never lose what is real.
There are ascension forums defending their illusions, whining about how rough it is to be a lightworker, a wayshower. A wayshower of what? A wayshower back into the illusion? You want to keep your illusions so that you won't have to go out of your mind. You haven't even started going out of your mind. Each moment holds death and birth. Nothing is familiar anymore.
That we are evolving at breathtaking speed, this is real.