When the mind is gone there is only one thing left, the Abyss.
I hate this, but the universe has no choice, all illusions have to go. I am being stripped bare. I have about $50 and 150 Euros. I just want to scream but I know this is where I am supposed to be.
I don't know what life without illusions is supposed to look like. I can't con the universe, there is nowhere to turn but to my own soul. Everything is changing faster and more profoundly. There is NOTHING to hold on to. I am a breath away from death by heart attack.