Everything
is always falling apart and now faster than ever. In the past 2 weeks I left the property once
to do the laundry. The emptiness is
getting to me. I am falling into the
abyss. There is nothing that will carry
me out of it.
Solitude
is not a quiet time but a raging storm and a current that rips everything apart,
taking away what doesn’t belong. I am
losing the cruel patriarchy; the mind, the only killer there is.
Emptiness
is the Undefinable Pure, the Holy Chambers, the unspoken ho’oponopono where you
just sit and weep, where the feeling is the prayer because there aren’t any
words for the pain you are feeling, the
madness in your mind and the crazy pictures marching through your head. When I came here I couldn’t breathe, I was
resisting being here.
I don’t
know what the result of this emptiness is going to be. There is no outside stimulus distracting me
from hearing my inner screams. This is a time of healing.
This too
will come to an end. What goes down must
come up.
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