You can’t see life as it really is through all your conditioning. We are to live intensely, abundantly, overflowing; instead we are crippled. You have to cut all the cords or you will keep puppeteering for others. You are their court jester.
My dad’s birthday, I have not sent a card nor am I wishing him happy birthday. In my world none of that exists. I want to be left alone from obligations.
I can never again do what somebody expects of me, I frankly don’t have the energy to support their schizophrenia. Its too exhausting carrying their illusions. Lately I have been very tired because I am going through massive changes.
I become violently ill when someone dumps their problems on me. I need stillness. I can no longer function in the brutal world of illusion. Pulling away used to frighten me, but now I know that I am protected and I don’t have to worry. The universe keeps rearranging itself to take care of my needs.