The Light Body

Steepest water slide in Brazil

My body is holding ancestral baggage.  Whenever I look in the mirror I look at a stranger.  Our physical bodies aren't ours, we have inherited them.  Our new bodies, our light bodies, will be ours.  We are integrating our light body into our physical body.  It's not a complex process.  Take a deep breath and let it happen.  Don't try to mentally construct your new body.

My light body is in the works.  That's why these outrageous, wacky situations show up so that the ancestral conditioning can be released.  This new situation is way over my head and it causes my body to shake and tremble.  I am beyond exhausted.

This is quite the accomplishment transmuting 6,000 years of patriarchal mind dominance.

Change finds me whether I want it or not

We can never know how an atom will behave naturally.   The very instant we look at an atom we alter it.  The very act of looking is never a passive thing.  It has an effect.  Physicists tell us that reality at its deepest level is the response of the observer.

Something new showed up.  The roommate left, I am back in my bedroom.  My 19 year old son is dating a girl with a 2-week old infant.  She is the daughter of a preacher.  Evolution finds its way by changing people’s ideas of how life is supposed to be.  I find this girl quite strong to be taking on her family at such a level.  I get to meet her on Sunday.

Yesterday I felt that I was ready for a big change.  I had no idea what would transpire today.  Where on earth does the universe come up with these situations?

Am I ready for it?  My mind says 'No.'  I would have never chosen this.

Cutting the Cords

You can’t see life as it really is through all your conditioning.  We are to live intensely, abundantly, overflowing; instead we are crippled.  You have to cut all the cords or you will keep puppeteering for others.  You are their court jester. 

My dad’s birthday, I have not sent a card nor am I wishing him happy birthday.  In my world none of that exists.  I want to be left alone from obligations.

I can never again do what somebody expects of me, I frankly don’t have the energy to support their schizophrenia.  Its too exhausting carrying their illusions.  Lately I have been very tired because I am going through massive changes.

I become violently ill when someone dumps their problems on me.  I need stillness.  I can no longer function in the brutal world of illusion.  Pulling away used to frighten me, but now I know that I am protected and I don’t have to worry.  The universe keeps rearranging itself to take care of my needs.

Restrictions Apply

Humans put many restrictions on themselves.  What they will and will not do; what they will and will not eat; what they will and will not say.  They are governed by their believes.

While people eat they talk about why they shouldn’t be eating what they are eating. How can you not do what you are doing?  That’s a trick no one has ever been able to pull off. You should always do what you do until you don’t.  Do what you do and be present with it.

Society would like to restrict my life.  I am supposed to earn a living.  Living happens in the present moment.  I can only be in the present when I am not ambitious.

A pure existence without boundaries brings the most daring transformations.  Only your source can take you to all your potentials.  The source is still and unmoving and as the paradox has it, will propel you.  Your core is the most powerful source there is, but untapped.  It’s just sitting there until you get started.  Dare to be still.  You’ll lose everything that isn’t you.

Process the energies of whatever shows up, don’t go into your head trying to figure it out.  The mind doesn’t know what the universe wants.  Processing the energies is all that’s needed and the new vibes will attract new things.

You can never step into the same river twice

Venice, Italy

Don’t fill the emptiness with something.  Wait for the emptiness to fill itself.  Watch it filling itself.  Watch it draining itself.  Don’t manipulate it.  Any manipulation fills nothingness with memories of what has been to predict the future. 

Everything in your life has to originate from within yourself.  Originate comes from original, unique, creative, new, unusual.  Nothingness when allowed to fill itself will produce something that has never been.  

I sit with nothingness, cycle through it, and by that I mean I don't run from unpleasant feelings until something materializes into the physical and then let it go.

Celebrating Life

Emptiness is followed by intoxicating beauty only to return to even deeper emptiness where everything is being pulled out of me.  In this weakness I give myself up and lose it all, my ego and everything I know.

I am empty, it’s a good thing, but it sure doesn’t feel good because the mind wants to know where it stands.  The mind is always desiring for something special to happen.  I am ok with nothing, that's when I see abundance, another paradox.

I never tell my son what to do.  I want nothing from him.  Wanting something from another is abuse.

If you want to govern the people,
you must place yourself below them.
If you want to lead the people,
you must learn how to follow them.  ~Tao Te Ching (66)

The Speed of the Universe

By doing nothing I align myself with the speed of the universe because the universe doesn’t have to undo my doing nor has to wait for my doing to be done.

Relax into your body, drop your shoulders, breathe.  My sweet inner voice is telling me to wait.

Non-moving, spacious nothingness.

I am feeling nothingness, everything disappears and I have no idea what will emerge.  I stay with the realization that everything has to let go of before something shows up that is neither tainted nor a repeat of what was.

I read an article that we can no longer afford standing still.  We have never stood still.  This is the time of standing still because movement is an illusion.  The mind needs action, purpose and excitement.  We will evolve when we stand still, that is the paradox.

The Speed of Your Soul

Most people live by the speed of their minds and miss everything.  The soul operates at a much slower pace, at a point of standing still, because there really is no movement.  Movement is an illusion of the mind. 

When you are standing still, which is your natural state, your mind wants to speed things up.  This morning my mind threw lots of problems at me, it was a huge list, and than my mind came up with solutions.  I simply observed how active my mind was allowing it to go anywhere it wanted without me putting any judgment on it until it became still again.

Always perceive you have a choice and never make it, that's the present. 

Stillness is awareness.

Parallel Universes

Things are really weird.  I don't know where I landed this time.  I live with other people but they are hardly around, even the neighbors seem to disappear.  I haven't seen our new roommate since he moved in last Tuesday.  It feels like getting administered electrical shocks when I get around people other than my son.  I have time alone to . . . who knows what.   Lots of things are happening without me knowing what it is.

It was Friday when I noticed it.  I hadn't gone anywhere in 2 weeks, I had the truck and could do anything I wanted.  So I went for it and I found out that I can no longer live the 3D live, it's too exhausting.  The universe then rearranged itself around that, or in other words, I landed in a parallel universe so that I won't have to deal with that dense 3D energy as much.

In each moment we switch billions of times between parallel universes.  You know when you are in a parallel universe when things go missing, keys get lost and than later turn up in an unexpected place; when people have different memories of the same event; when you run into yourself; when memories of the past are different to now match the new universe; when your body temperature changes; when people behave differently; when everything feels different yet looks the same.  There are many more telltale signs as people become more aware of shifting.

I know I am straddling universes when I am excessively tired and I can barely put one foot in front of the other or when I look at two universes at the same time.  

When someone has a need, shamans go to parallel universes where the need is fulfilled and bring it back here.

Narnia

I was shown that when I step out of my closet I will step into Narnia. 

Narnia is a world of magic, mythical beasts and talking animals, as is characteristic of parallel universes.  The main setting is the world of Narnia and the world containing the city of Charn.  These are just two worlds in a multiverse of countless worlds.  Passage between these worlds is possible and may be accomplished by various means. 

I have no idea what this means in terms of my life and I am not going to speculate about it.  

Living in the closet is a place of transition; a place without stimuli and distractions; a protected, safe place; a place of passage into a new world.

Today I released one billion old-world believes.  This happened effortlessly through entering a portal where those believes don't belong.  The stage is set for something new to happen.  There is nothing to do but wait.

I keep hearing 'one month,' which would be September 11.  I have been seeing 911 for the past 6 months.  Whatever this means will be revealed as I go along.

PS:  911 meant that my son was going to be in an accident that almost killed him.

How to get out of your head into your body - Exercise

When we are born we access all of our files: auditory,  visual and kinesthetic.  But than we have to submit to Mamma god and Pappa god in order to survive.  Which means that we get to access only one of our files and ignore the other files. 

Auditory people need to hear things in order to understand them.

Visual people need to see things in order to understand them.

Kinesthetic people need to feel things in order to understand them.

A balanced person has access to all 3 files which is rare because of the way we were raised.

Notice when something happens in your life or you have to make a decision, your eyes will automatically lock into place and stay frozen; your eyes become fixed because your mind wants to process what's happening.  By doing this exercise you will get out of your head into your body and be able to access all 3 of your files.

Do this for 1.5 minutes every day.

Don't move your head, just your eyes.  This can be done in any order:

1.  Move your eyes up to your left, breathe; 

2.  Move your eyes up center, breathe; 

3.  Move your eyes up to your right, breathe; 

4.  Move your eyes to your right (not up nor down), breathe; 

5.  Move your eyes down to your right, breathe; 

6.  Move your eyes down to your left, breathe; 

7.  Move your eyes to your left (not up nor down), breathe.

Another exercise to become more aware is:

1.  Listen to an external sound; 

2.  Listen to an internal sound; 

3.  Feel your big toe; 

4.  Look at something.

I don't have to be anything.  I don't have to do anything.

Infinite Space

I landed in an infinite new space.  I don't know anything about this space at all.  There are no footprints, no one has walked here before.  It won't be a repeat of what has been.  No ones opinions count here.  It's all my territory to explore, no loitering from someone else.  I am the Christopher Columbus of the New Energy.

Everything is fundamentally neutral, there is no judgment nor meaning, and from that place I shall create.

Everybody has their own world, their own canvas.  We are always shifting from parallel reality to parallel reality billions of times each second.  There are times when our illusions overlap by agreement.   My response to the outside world has changed.  I don't have to participate in others illusions. 

In the old energy we depended on the tribe to survive.  I have left the tribe with much trepidation and terror, believing that I was going to die.  I am still here. 

My vibration is being raised so that I will match the vibration of the new, to that which comes natural to my source.  This is the part of the journey that is not so enjoyable.  I am extremely tired and my body feels like lead.  This too shall pass.

Be Still

I am living in a stinky closet to confuse my mind, to facilitate No-Mind.  This time I didn't throw a fit, I just simply accepted that it's the most loving thing my soul could do for me.

I no longer ask why.  The mind can't comprehend the wisdom of the universe.  There is a reason for this and it's a great blessing.

We have a new roommate, that's how I lost my bedroom.

Your Inner Voice

Only your inner voice can guide you.  If you ask someone for advice you will get their experiences, not yours, they won’t understand you.  

No one agreed with me, I had to find my own way.  I was judged harshly and ridiculed.  Now I know I have done the right thing.  I am coming out of a very long down-spiral.

You are unique, an original, not a copy.  You cannot follow anybody.

The mind is filled with voices that belong to others.  Your inner voice does not come from the mind.  The voice in your head is not who you are. 

I am emptiness, nothingness.  That is my starting point.  I don’t have any agenda.  I always let go of everything.  I am learning to relax into myself, my source.

The outside world wants my attention.  The inner world has to be taken care of first before the outside world rearranges itself effortlessly.  When the inner is taken care of the reflection of the outer changes.

My inner voice is a guidance system that is far removed from the patriarchy, thus the constant feeling of dangling over a cliff until that cliff becomes my friend, then that cliff is the launching pad into new territory.