People seek illusion because its safe and familiar. Reality is too much to handle, you don't know whats next. You get to experience the bliss of the moment and than it has to die to make room for the bliss of the next moment. You are always hanging over a cliff not knowing if something will catch you. You get to love what shows up instead of rejecting it. Reality only knows beauty.
When you allow your mind to be in charge you close because the mind is afraid to open. Anything mental is brutal. The mind feeds on illusion.
This moment is full of this moment, just show up to the party, without death you cannot come.