Nothing is getting done and things are slipping away. And that's the way its supposed to be.
I am trying to focus, but I can't. Nothing sticks. I can't hold on to who I think I am, the energy is moving so fast spinning my patterns out of me.
I am in the falling away stage, the false is being removed. When I come out of it I will be lighter. Right now its exhausting going through that vortex.
Only the false can fall away. In the past I was afraid to fall apart because to the mind it looks like I wouldn't be able to function in the world anymore. Now I welcome it because whatever isn't me is being removed. My shadow is disappearing. Existence takes care of me.
Anything false needs continuous holding together and it doesn't support me, I have to support it. Presence does not exert energy. Nothing in my life should use up my energy. Anything that needs my energy is not who I am. That's where I have given power away.
In the beginning of the journey the shadows were terrifying, eventually they became smaller until I realized they aren't real.
It takes too much effort maintaining the person I am not.