A new level of hell just opened up. I haven't reached bottom yet.
So much fear. So much pain. So much unease.
Something has ended and I am hitting a brick wall. How do I go on from here. My mind doesn't know what to do with this new situation.
Being part of the tribe you know what to do. Its all programmed into you. I have left the tribe. I have no road map. The mind needs a map. It needs to know whats next. It needs action. It can't deal with this nothingness. Give me something, anything.
I guess stillness too has its levels. I am releasing so much. I have to find fulfillment in stillness. Nothing is going to rescue me. That darn rabbit hole.
I have no more tools left. Quantum physics has helped me figure things out. But now I am at a loss. Maybe the time for something else has come.
This is what it takes to manifest your soul. Fear, insanity and dysfunction can't be part of that life.