My mind is screaming for something it can recognize. Today is a brutal day. So many questions. I don't know where I am going or what to do. I have died and now I don't know how to go on. I should be happy about this, but I am not. The question of survival is looming over my head. How can I make any decisions when everything is constantly changing? I can't push myself to go back to what once was. Everything is new and the old isn't fitting into this. I am in transition.