Can I be free each moment where I don't sell myself or carry anything, where I don't have an agenda no matter what?
The mind always intervenes and comes up with a story where we either love the moment or hate it depending on the story.
When there is no story the truth can be revealed and my behavior will change. People will pull me into their illusions if I let them. They will squeeze me into their iron mold where I suffocate. They have expectations of me and I am supposed to live up to them. I can't and won't do it anymore.
Can I live in the world of illusion and still be my true Self?
Yes, I can.