This too shall pass, but when?

My live doesn't make any sense.  I have lost everything again.  I usually do before I begin anew.  I don't know how long this transition is going to take.  I have to be very gentle with myself and allow it.  Nothing is comforting me.  That shows me that I am still attached to outside influences.  I want out so badly, but  I have to endure.

Every experience creates new pathways in the mind.  The mind is inflexible due to conditioning.  My life is always changing and my mind has to constantly adjust and since I don't know where all of this is headed my mind always fills in the blanks with horror stories.  Only my inner guidance will get me through this.  

Is your mind taking you for a ride

When your mind is in charge the consequences are brutal.  Illusion will keep you from seeing this.  The mind distorts everything.  To become sane you have to lose your mind.  

   

Going deeper into the illusion

Energy works circular.  That's why we always come full circle.  The same old problems seem to creep up but each time at a notch higher.  That's what happened to me.  I am back in an environment I thought I left for good almost 6 years ago.  I had to go back.  If I didn't I would go deeper into the illusion.  I now have the insight to see the illusion for what it is.

When we run from the present moment we go deeper into the illusion, thus creating problems.  In the present moment there are no problems.  The present moment takes care of everything.  

 

What makes you insane also makes you sane

We are each others homeopathic remedy.  What makes you insane also makes you sane.   The present moment is always sane.  When you escape from it you create insanity.  There is only one upset, the loss of the present.  When it requires maintenance it is illusion.

People without bodies

 

When you are not in your body you are not at home.  You are nowhere to be found. 

You allow your mind to abuse your body by forcing it to do things.   Let your body move your body and life will be gentle.   You will always be where you need to be and have what you need.  Your body always knows what needs to be taken care off and your mind often overrides it.    Your home is your body.  When your mind is in control you are beating the living daylights out of your existence.

Notice your body.  Is it relaxed?  How is your breathing?  Do you hold your breath?  When you relax your body you turn control over to your body.

Letting your body make decisions is scary because you have to come out of hiding.  I never know what I am going to do until I do it.  That way I am always present in this moment and not planning the future moment.

I never have a To-Do list.  I got married that way and divorced, I recently moved that way, everything ran smoothly because people are always where they are supposed to be, doing exactly what they are supposed to do to support me.

Stillness

Society wants me to behave like a dog in heat, out of control, always running. With the introduction of cell phones even more so.   Society is into speed.  They are fast but not vast.  Their fastness slows them down, whereas their vastness would speed them up.

With cell phones people can talk about their problems anytime, anyplace with their friends.  Stillness is a creative power.  Everything is energy.  The moment I speak this vast energy becomes dense and I now have created a problem for myself and it has to show up in my life.  I have made it real.  When people keep discussing their problems they are not solving anything, they are putting a boat anchor on it thus anchoring it into their lives.  Just be still and it will resolve itself because you are not giving it a chance to show up in the physical.

Ouch

What showed up naturally is not what I like.  I moved out of my place this morning.  I am in between.  A friend offered that I stay at her place and I would love to take her up on it but that is not where I am supposed to be.  

What showed up naturally is here to heal me and that feeling is not enjoyable.  It means facing myself which I really don't want to do.  But I cannot move on until this is resolved. 

I don't want to call myself homeless because I am at home in each moment.  People who run away from the moment are like fugitives.  They may own big houses and a large bank account but they are forever outrunning themselves so that they never have to face the music.

Can't say I am enjoying this.  This too shall pass.

The truth about the mind

The mind is trained to make up problems and than solve them, keeping you forever stuck in your head.  When you walk down the stairs you cannot fix breakfast and when you are sitting at the table you cannot shop for groceries.  Yet, your body sits at the table but in your head you are doing the grocery shopping.  You are always thinking about what needs to be done.  Such waste of energy.

Stillness aligns me with what is supposed to show up, it is a creative force.  When we talk about what is going to happen we change the energy, make it more dense, which makes it extremely difficult to move this dense energy.  When we are still the energy is fluid and things happen in an instant. 

When we prepare we slow down the process and prepare for the wrong thing, for something the mind thinks needs to be prepared for. 

People are blindly turning their lives over to their minds.  You have no idea of the consequences.   This knowledge comes through awareness and experience.  Instead of listening to your mind observe your body.  The body is always in the present moment and knows what needs to be done.  The body is intelligent and the mind is retarded, insane, ridged.  Life is simple when the mind is not in charge. 

Stolen Lives

Your mind has highjacked you.  We are trained to belief that the mind is the master and to take it seriously.  The mind is here for entertainment only and not to make life’s decisions.  Do you know how much abuse you are taking from your mind on a daily basis?  No one else is abusing you as much as you do. 

Probably the greatest fear is: ‘How will I survive if I don’t use my mind.’  This fear keeps the mind in the position of the master putting you right back into slavery.  But the ego won’t let you see this.  It claims: ‘The more you use your mind, the smarter you are.’  Intelligence does not come from the mind.  We were born intelligent and the mind makes you stupid, its that simple.  The mind robs you of everything, its a thief.

If your mind is in charge you will read this and think 'that woman is off the rocker.'  In a world that is still governed by the mind it will appear that way.

There was a time where people believed the world was flat and than they learned otherwise.  Columbus had to get the terrified sailors drunk to get them on his ships and sail beyond the horizon.  We are again at the brink of a horrendous paradigm shift, but people are terrified to let go of their minds. Just like the sailors they think they will surely die.

Waking Up

Being able to live in the moment without a past, without a future, without an agenda.   And the mind will do what it does best, fill in the unknown with its own horror stories so that you will go back to the mind and make it your master again.

Planning takes you away from reality.  You put something there because you don’t trust that what shows up naturally is what you really need, is what gives you life.  Reality never makes you leave yourself.  Reality is always kinder than anything you could put there.  Reality carries itself.   When it requires maintenance it is illusion.  Stillness will support you.

The mind screams, 'give me something familiar.'  Soul says, 'you have already done that, lets do something new.'

Oh, why did I sign up for this?  Illusion wasn't so bad when I was asleep.  Why does waking up have to be so cruel?  Because it creates depth.  The upside can only be as high as the downside is low.

Joy

Anything that does not look like joy should not be done.  The energy you put out always returns to you.  Not only that, on its way back it picks up speed and collects everything of like vibration, thus increasing it ten fold.  It could get quite messy. 

The universe is always listening, every single thought and feeling will be delivered with precision.  

And that’s why I am sweating. As always I will get rescued the last minute.  People are watching me and want to interfere with their fixed mind programming.  To them I am the one who looks insane.

In the world of illusion that which is sane appears insane and that which is insane appears sane.

The laws of the universe state that you must always experience that which you create.  So, if you suffer, don’t blame the government, your environment or your significant other.  It’s always you.

Force

When you force things you are paying an enormous price and you don’t even realize this.  Today I was granted this truth and it was jaw-dropping.  It causes so much misery but people won’t back off because the drilling factory called school, that mental institution, is all about the mind.  When you listen to your mind the very deeply ingrained collective angst will have you hit the emergency exit called planning and you will end up with the same old life, right back into slavery.  This is not who we are.

When there is no force there is only precision.