Absolutely nothing has changed. I am neither better nor worse. After years of self-improvement, awakening from the dream, I haven't changed at all, mainly because at the core I am always the same.
This journey was about removing that which doesn’t belong, that which was put there by others and about embracing myself. That's why I don't feel any different. I expected to come out of this a totally different person, but that is not the case. I am still the same, except shinier with all the mud removed.
I met my Twinflame 16 years ago. Without him I would not have gone on this quest because I had no reason to. But he awakened me and I couldn’t ignore it. I call him ‘the carrot’ because he’s been dangled before me like a carrot to keep me going. Thus the url of my blog: “the weekly carrot”.
In the past 16 years I have seen him only briefly, and that was 7 years ago. We never had any private conversations, only connected professionally.
16 years is a long time and a waste of the best years of my life, we both have gotten older. But today I feel so strongly that when we meet again we will pick up where we left off as if we have never been physically apart. My heart jumps for joy.