Saturday, July 28, 2012

Today's Status Update

Absolutely nothing has changed.  I am neither better nor worse. After years of self-improvement, awakening from the dream, I haven't changed at all, mainly because at the core I am always the same.  

This journey was about removing that which doesn’t belong, that which was put there by others and about embracing myself.  That's why I don't feel any different.  I expected to come out of this a totally different person, but that is not the case.  I am still the same, except shinier with all the mud removed.

I met my Twinflame 16 years ago.  Without him I would not have gone on this quest because I had no reason to.  But he awakened me and I couldn’t ignore it.  I call him ‘the carrot’ because he’s been dangled before me like a carrot to keep me going.  Thus the url of my blog: “the weekly carrot”.

In the past 16 years I have seen him only briefly, and that was 7 years ago.  We never had any private conversations, only connected professionally. 

16 years is a long time and a waste of the best years of my life, we both have gotten older.   But today I feel so strongly that when we meet again we will pick up where we left off as if we have never been physically apart.   My heart jumps for joy.

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