Change the Outcome

The blind journey

The mind will keep you busy attending to illusion.  We are getting out of our minds into our bodies because the body knows everything.  Leaving the matrix is the most hellish journey of all.  Its a journey in the dark where you have no idea where you are going.

There are three stages I noticed to descending into our bodies.

Stage one:  You get a glimpse of reality which will keep you going for a while.

Stage two:  You plummet into the abyss to release everything that's in the way for that reality to manifest.  This stage can be quite terrifying. 

Stage three:  The Void.  Emptiness.  Neutrality.  Spaciousness.  Where nothing is happening so that the new can be born out of stillness from the emptiness where nothing is tainted with illusion.

Then the cycle repeats itself until there is less and less illusion.  

You can't drop illusion, it has to drop you; and that happens through experiences and awareness.

Because the mind only knows illusion you will also encounter mirages to trick the mind.  Something the mind thinks is going to happen and by the time you get there you neither need it nor want it. 

 

The power of money is probably the biggest illusion there is.  For me to let go of that illusion and live without income required many mirages or I would have dropped dead from fright.

New Beginnings are often disguised as painful endings.  ~Lao Tzu

The Net

You can't step into the same river twice.  Even so we are back in our old city, nothing is the same.  All the things I held onto are gone.  Who are you when everything disappears, your personality, your believes.  There is a net that catches you, and that net has been woven from previous experiences.  Now your mind has something to fall back on.  It now knows that you will survive even so there is no physical evidence of it.

If you ask people for advice they will give you their fears, their limits.  They only know their conditioning, whats safe for them.  You have to step out of their illusions and find your own Self.  We are meant to live big.

Illusion requires maintenance.  The more illusion you have the harder you work to keep it going.  You have to attend to everything.  You are trying to make something fit that's already gone.  Nothing fits because illusion is too big.  You have to get smaller.  How present are you when you walk across the room, when you open the door?  That's how small you have to get or you are nowhere to be found. 

Keeping the old alive, the same old stories people tell themselves over and over, that's a lot of baggage (garbage) to carry.  No carrying required, only dropping.  

Losing the identification with form

I am over the moon.  So much space opened up for me.  I no longer identify myself with form, therefore I am fearless.  I am abundance.  I AM.   

AND 

I function in the world of form.  In fact, its my playground. 

Moving to Lenoir was super easy.  Everything fell into place.  No drama on my part.  

There is only one upset:  The loss of the present.

I breathe and leave the rest up to the universe.  I resist nothing.

I spent the day sitting in the recliner, doing only what I wanted to do.  The mind would have me running around, putting everything into place the way it used to be.

The universe is brand new zillions of times each moment, but people put their lives together the same way it was the moment before so that they don't ever feel death nor the downside.  

I looked at the sky and laughed.

Who I am can't be explained.

I have never known so much freedom.

Exercise to interrupt repetitious thinking:  The activity you perform most, whenever you do that activity, touch your crotch.  That  should lighten you up.  For instance, every time you open a door, mentally touch your crotch.

AND

Never forget to breathe.

The less dense mind

 "When the mind loses its density, you become translucent, like the flower. Spirit – the formless – shines through you into the world.” ~Eckhart Tolle

We are moving back to Lenoir next weekend to a new place.  I go empty handed into the unknown.  The world of form will arrange itself around me.  I am not going after form using my patterns, i.e. making a to-do list or planning this out in my head.  I am going about this with no-mind. 

My attention has shifted from the outer world to my inner body awareness.  There is so much to feel.  

I love my new relationship with my son.  It's so unpatterned.  I have no agenda and therefore feel the aliveness in everything, the upside and the downside.

Desires arise in the mind.  When you don't act on your desires they will go away.  Breathing gets you out of your mind.

The mind can't be trusted

Before you judge others or consider any absolute truth . . . 

“Consider that you can see less than 1% of the electromagnetic spectrum and hear less than 1% of the acoustic spectrum. As you read this, you are traveling at 220 km/sec across the galaxy. 90% of the cells in your body carry their own microbial DNA and are not “you.” The atoms in your body are 99.9999999999999999% empty space and none of them are the ones you were born with, but they all originated in the belly of a star. Human beings have 46 chromosomes, 2 less than the common potato. The existence of the rainbow depends on the conical photoreceptors in your eyes; to animals without cones, the rainbow does not exist. So you don’t just look at a rainbow, you create it. This is pretty amazing, especially considering that all the beautiful colors you see represent less than 1% of the electromagnetic spectrum.” –Sergio Toporek

http://lunarscience.nasa.gov/articles/beware-of-images/

220 km = 130 miles/sec or 7800 miles/hr

Silence

Ignorance and Intelligence

The ground appears under my feet the moment I set foot on it, not a moment before.  I have no direction.  The event has not been selected yet.  Therefore I can't have an agenda.  I have to wait for what shows up naturally.

The mind looks at life through the macro, but life is happening in the micro.  The mind can't put this together.  It has to fall into place by itself, effortlessly.

There is a lot to feel.

When there is anxiety there are two things to consider.  What's really happening and what I make up about what's really happening.

When you feel fear it probably isn't fear.  It's the fear of fear.  When you live with content, the stories in your head, you fear fear, which paralyzes you.  The response to that is terror.  When you live without content you feel raw fear, when observed it frees you.  It cycles through your energy field for a moment and than it's gone.

When you compare yourself to others you probably won't measure up and the cycle of suffering has begone.  You want to emulate them, thus ignoring yourself. 

Ignoring yourself is the only ignorance there is.  ~Osho.

 Intelligence is the ability to adapt to change.  ~Stephen Hawking.