Labor of Love?

This isn't necessary

The moment won't move, so you move your mind because you hate the stillness; like a boulder up a steep hill, you push and push and you wonder why you are exhausted.  You blame your exhaustion on your life circumstances, on your age, on all the things that need to get done.  Everything is done.  Everything is whole but your mental illness won't let you see it.  

You keep taking things apart so you can fix them.  Everything is whole, everything is done.  Don't let your mind pull you into the world of illusion.

No beautiful mind

A beautiful mind - the movie

A beautiful mind is a still mind. 

The mind doesn't want this. The mind doesn't want your life.  The mind wants illusion.  The mind wants the known.  The mind has an emergency exit called illusion.  The mind can't cope with reality.  It is forever looking for something it can recognize. 

Reality is unrecognizable to the mind.  We need to lose our minds completely. 

Action happens without the mind's involvement, but people don't notice this.  They belief that without thought nothing happens.  Thought is far removed from who we really are. In the world of illusion it appears as if the mind is the cause for anything to function.  The mind has no function, it keeps you from reality.

My dad sits in his wheel chair all day long and fabricates illusions and wants his children to participate in them.  We of course can't because our bodies won't allow it because reality will not support needy relationships.  He is dissatisfied with his life and blames everyone else for it.  Bitterness arises when you don't know the difference between illusion and reality.  

The body is always in the present moment while the mind rips everything to pieces.  My relatives want me to visit them.  They put the burden on me to come and see them.  My body is not bringing me to them. They don't see that they are the ones who have to change, not me.  My life does not belong to my mind nor theirs.  My life belongs to my body, the universe made flesh.

Nature is our teacher

Why do birds fly effortlessly through the air without crashing into anything?  Because they follow their bodies.  They don't stop in mid air asking: "What should I do? How should I do this? What do I need?"  They trust their innate navigational system.  Humans also have this system, but they use their minds to override it.  

The mind is manual, slow, tedious, with nothing but errors.  It's defect.  The innate system is automatic, quick, effortless and you get to enjoy the ride.

People labor when they think.  They are always figuring out how they are going to do something and when they are going to do it, they have 'To Do' lists and shopping lists.  In their mind they have to reach a destination and everything in between goes unnoticed.

Our minds cripple us and hold us back.  We are so much more. 

The First Monkey

Being the 100th monkey is easy, but who is the first monkey?

People go through the same motions day after day never noticing anything, talking about how they could have done things differently or how they are going to change things.  You cannot do anything differently, it's not possible.  Thinking that you have any control over anything  just shows how ignorant and insane you are.

Most people don't want to be where they are.  We cannot change our physical location no matter how hard our minds try to escape from it.  The mind comes up with ideas how to change the physical reality.  I cannot not do what I am doing.  The only choice I have is accepting what is.  The only choice I have is stillness, anything else is insanity and futility.

The mind can only change through direct experience.  You can talk until you are blue in the face, words will not change anybody.  

I am in my body,  I don't use my mind to beat the shit out of myself by planning what I am going to do or by deciding what I want.   I observe my body and allow my body to make all decisions.  If I don't know where I want to go I watch my body where it is taking me, that takes all the guesswork out of my life.  I follow my body, my mind has no input.  My body is always in the present moment, that's how I know what is going on and what needs to be done.  The mind always overrides it and wants to change things.  I don't listen to my mind.  The mind is the most unreliable source there is.  

People never notice anything because they are so stuck in their minds.  People are stuck in their illusions as if it's a matter of life and death.  They are in their minds so that they don't have to notice anything.

Rescue me

Daniel in the Lions Den

The mind has never been in charge.  People have abandoned their intuition and given in to the pressures of their mind to act when their gut will tell them to wait.  They have given in to their fears.  This entire society is a product of fear.  Life isn't hard, illusion is.  When it requires maintenance its illusion.  Every day your mind is giving you an ass whooping and you accept it.

I have been staying with a friend for a week.  My plan was to fly to Germany last Monday but than the universe told me to wait and I have not been given the go-ahead yet.  People want answers because that's how their minds work, but I don't have any answers, I don't know the outcome of this.  My friend has been pressuring me, she wants to know where she stands.  This is too harsh an environment for me so the universe removed her for 4 weeks to take care of her mother in Texas.  Her two daughters (20 & 24) and husband are here.  The daughters sleep until afternoon and the husband stays in his office most the time, he works from home.  They too want to know so I stay out of sight.

I feel so horribly punished right now but how else are people going to see what their mind is doing to them.  I am here so that they all can witness to trust the universe and not their mind.  I hope this is over soon.  At times I am going out of my mind because my mind cannot grasp how I am going to be rescued, but rescued I will.

I have $1.77, 150 Euros, no car, no phone.  None of these limit my possibilities.  I rely on the universe.

The mind delivers manure

Misthaufen

When your mind is in charge of your life you will have shitloads of manure delivered to your doorstep.  You will try to solve problems that exist in the imagination of your mind only.  This is not the imagination Einstein is talking about:  

“Imagination is more important than knowledge. For knowledge is limited to all we now know and understand, while imagination embraces the entire world, and all there ever will be to know and understand.”

Each moment is veiled in the unknown.  The mind has a big problem with not knowing and fills it with its illusionary vision of what it knows, namely problems.  Nothing is possible to the mind. People plan their lives so that they can escape the unknown.  The mind always has to know where it stands.  Leaving things up to 'fate' is too horrifying.  

Relaxing into each moment, allowing it to unfold and embracing it, from day one we have been taught that it will spell disaster, that you will be destitute, end up as a pauper.  To the contrary.  You will have everything you desire, love you can't even imagine, wisdom, abundance, beauty, the world at your feet and than some.

Enlightenment

When were you this carefree

You are already enlightened, you just don't know it.

Everything is energy, speedy Gonzales, roadrunner energy.  We are light traveling at incredible speed.  Your mind is slowing you down.  The mind is an obstruction in the wheel of life, it will bring you to a screeching halt.  It will put a heavy burden on you.  We were never meant to carry anything.

When your illusions match someone else's illusions they call it Love.  In the world of illusion love is impossible.   It's neediness disguised as love.

"I help people."  You are full of it.  You are only interested in you.  No one needs you.  If you were honest with yourself you wouldn't be doing most of the things you are doing. 

You want to appear nice and needed.  Your mind has built such an enormous illusion about yourself and you think that is who you really are.  You keep the imaginary you alive.  You are building illusion like crazy to protect who you used to be and never were.  If you knew who you really are you'd freak out.

When two opposing forces meet you can expect action.  My illusions are being busted.  Right now I don't feel so good.

You are light.

Creating new pathways in the mind

The mind can only go so far and than it repeats the loop.  The mind has to be tricked to go further.  When you can't go on that's where you decided to stop.

My mind is freaking out because it wants to stay in the same loop, but my life won't allow it.  My mind cannot loop, it has to create a new pathway to deal with the uncertainty of life.

People keep repeating themselves because that is all their minds are capable off.

We were supposed to be out of here by June 1st, but we are still here.  I can't allow my mind to take over, I have to relax into my body because my body knows.

Each new development is here to trick my mind into releasing fear and baggage.

The manager said:  "You could have come to the office and talked to me."  He couldn't have because he didn't.  Now he had to make up an explanation that would make sense to the insane manager.  Reality is, he didn't come to the office.  He does what he does. 

I always do what I do and I never do what I don't do.   

With the move going the way it does everyone's mental loops are being interrupted and the mind is freaking out.

People can't take the heat of the moment and keep going back into the same loop over and over again,  

When you can't go on you are being set up to get out of the loop.  I have to leave the loop so that my life belongs to my soul and not to my mind.  The mind is frightened to leave the loop and is holding on for dear life.

Every day I am going insane because my mind is being challenged to come closer to the present moment.

Observing vs. meddling

Life is like a board game.  When you meddle you get to repeat the experience.  When you observe you get to advance to the next phase.

I have been living at my ex's apartment for over 3 months.  He got married and is now living with his wife.  He is a hoarder and his stuff is still here.   We have to be out of here by the end of the month.

This is the strangest move ever.  My mind is flipping.   One more week left and they are not moving anything out of here.   Every room is filled with stuff.  My mind is expecting this to go a certain way but its not happening.  Their actions give me problems, but I won't meddle.  Now my mind is trying to figure out what's going on.  My son just left with an empty trailer to go to his dad's place.  Why didn't he load it up?   How are they going to get all this stuff out of here by the end of the month?

My conclusion:   Illusion makes sense.  Reality is insane.  In the world of illusion what appears sane is insane and what appears insane is sane.

It is so hard to observe and accept everything the way it is.  I want to meddle and know what's going on, but I won't because I am not going to repeat this experience.  So I am going to allow it to be the way it is.  I feel insane right now.  What makes you insane also makes you sane.

I have to get smaller.  I can't look at this with an agenda.  I can't give it the label 'moving'.  Moving is made up of many moments.  I can't decide what's going to happen in the next moment, nor what it should look like.  I have to allow the moment to show me what's supposed to happen.

   

Mind fields

Every day you navigate through the mine field of your mind.  You fight with reality because you want it your way.  If you could accept what shows up there would be no problem.  The mind resists everything.

We are taught the more we use our minds the smarter we are.  So we use our minds to get what we want.  We never get what we want.  You have to let go of everything.  The universe won't be manipulated.  Things change, but you are not the one who changes them.

There is only energy, that's all there is.  Everything else is a story.  When your mind is in charge you will listen to those stories.  The mind creates illusion, that's all its capable off.  You can stop the dream any time you want to.

 

In the new energy nothing shows up before its needed.

Reading our bodies

Body painting

The body can be anywhere, but you are not in it, you are nowhere to be found, you are going through your patterned motions.  Your body is in one place and your mind is somewhere else.  You are hiding.

To come out of hiding you have to feel safe.  Wake up where you are. When people don't wake up boredom sets in, so they change the location, move somewhere else, go on vacation.

To be where your body is you have to increase your sample rate, you need to go deeper into your nervous system.  

You learn to ride a bike when you are not riding it after you have been exposed to it, your nervous system adjusts to the motions when there is no chance of falling.

Right now my nervous system is adjusting massively.  I am being exposed to new territory and than I go back to my familiar place to incorporate it.  In other words I am getting bigger, my sample rate is increasing.  

If the sample rate is too big you get overwhelmed, if its too small you get bored.   Recently I have been overwhelmed often.  I suspect this is to get me ready for my next place so that I won't check out when I get there.  The reason why I don't know whats next is because it will blow my gaskets in my present state.  Every day my nervous system is being prepared a lot more, many emotions are coming up.

We are descending into our bodies.  We are becoming aware of everything that is going on with us.   Our bodies hold the answers and we are learning to read our bodies.

Die already, don't let the mind decide what's next

Lulu and Sabine

Never reach for the next moment.

The mind doesn't know anything, yet pretends to be the master of everything.   The mind is ignorant and you put it on the throne of your life, you made it your master, and you are its slave.  

The mind with its neediness and worries is incapable of seeing beauty and abundance.   It  can't see anything real.

Planning is a function of the mind.  When you can't look beyond the mind you are always planning and worrying about the future and you will waste your energy because you will always give in to your mind's fears.  

Without the mind's interference you can just Be, the observer of all things.  When you don't plan you will lose illusion.  You will never lose what is real.   In each moment let go of everything you know about anything.

Adrenaline junkies

The mind wants action all the time.  But there is none.  Reality consists of Being, not doing.  Reality requires non-action, the effortlessness in all things.  Nothing exists for long.

There aren't any explanations for whats going on.  Society is set up to feed the mind.  Motivational speakers keep things alive that are supposed to die.  You are being motivated to hold on.  But you can't hold on, it has to slip away.  You are beating yourself up because you can't get yourself to do things.  You don't need motivation, all you need is death, let go, and what arises is who you truly are.  Doing nothing is where its at.

I am leaving the nest

Everything suddenly and radically changed again.  I have never felt so much ease.  Everything falls into place naturally and easily when the conditioned mind is not in charge.  Things arrange themselves without me doing anything.

I feel myself coming out of a very long inward journey.  I am shown that I am leaving the nest and I get to reconnect with life again.  I don't have to figure out how and when this is going to happen.

Losing everything is only an illusion

You hold on to illusion for dear life because you believe its real.  What is it going to take for you to let go of illusion?  You can never lose what is real. 

There are ascension forums defending their illusions, whining about how rough it is to be a lightworker, a wayshower.  A wayshower of what?  A wayshower back into the illusion?  You want to keep your illusions so that you won't have to go out of your mind.  You haven't even started going out of your mind.  Each moment holds death and birth.  Nothing is familiar anymore.

That we are evolving at breathtaking speed, this is real.

We are on death row - depth row

To move forward we have to let go of all illusions.   The mind is no longer in charge, its not the master but the servant.   We have to let go of everything we know, our worries, our stories.

People want change but they don't want to change.  They want more money so that they don't have to change.   Money is an illusion and its being taken away.  People are afraid of loss because they don't know what its going to be replaced with.  In their minds if you take away money than poverty must follow.   But that is the mind filling in what it has experienced in the past.  In the patriarchal system that is what could be expected.  But that system is an illusion and we are being shown a new way of being which sets the mind off.  The mind can't handle this.

Living outside the illusion means death and it doesn't feel good.   Every moment is a new beginning, but it is preceded by death.  People don't want to go there, but you have to.  Go there and stay there until it turns on its own.

You can only go as high as you can go low.  We are on death row - depth row.  Without death there is no depth.  People interfere with this process.  They avoid going into the depth of death.   If you observe it instead of fighting it the upside will show up.

Standing still while moving at warp speed

The road ends

The universe must love paradoxes.  Everything is moving at breathtaking speed while physically I am standing still.  Like a drop of water suspended in air with vast energies racing around it.

I am getting knocked off constantly.   My mind is trying to grasp this but it can't.  So the best thing is to let go of everything.  I clearly landed in a new space.   Everything is functioning at a different level.  I came to the end of the road and I no longer need a road.

I live in space

99.99% is empty space and only .01% is matter.  But people live as if 99.99% is matter because their fearful minds keep them incredibly busy.  They don't perceive that there is that much space.  They are being pounded by their mind continually.  

The body is always in the present moment but the mind is all over.  There is incongruency, the body and mind aren't lining up and that's why lives are messy.  The mind forces the body to rush around and the body doesn't put up with it and will make you sick.

I always go inside first before I go out.  We were forced to go out first and were never allowed to go inside.  Learning to go inside is painstaking, a ride through hell.  Many people don't know that they have to go inside, its a place they don't trust.  Everything in society is geared to keep us from going inside.

The mind is here for entertainment only

My mind will never again hold me back.  It will never again be in charge.  I have learned to listen to my soul and I am safe.  If people knew the havoc their mind is creating, but if I speak up I will be the one labeled insane.  The mind is giving people false security.  Misery feels safer than the unknown.   

The Tao Te Ching

2.  Therefore the Master acts without doing anything 
and teaches without saying anything.
Things arise and she lets them come; 
things disappear and she lets them go.
She has but doesn't possess, 
acts but doesn't expect.
When her work is done, she forgets it.  
That is why it lasts forever.

3.  Practice not-doing, and everything will fall into place.

The mind on fire

My mind always comes up with an emergency to pull me out of the present moment. The mind will tell me what to do, when and how to do it. The mind's tricks aren't easily discovered. "You can't sit there and do nothing, you have to get going."  When I am rushing I am on my own, the universe will not support me.  I have to stop and align myself with the universe.  

The other day I was in a hurry to get to my job and I locked myself out. It made me remember that I will always get to where I need to be when I am supposed to be there.

No illusions in my mind and no resistances in my body.  I have to let go of everything including my job and see if I will end up there.  I will get there when I get there.  And no premeditating of what I am going to say.  No more carrying of anything.  I cannot leave the present moment and think that something in the future is more important than what is happening now.  I cannot prepare for the future because it doesn't exist.

Tao Te Ching

38. The Master does nothing,
yet he leaves nothing undone.
The ordinary man is always doing things,
yet many more are left to be done.

48. In pursuit of knowledge,
every day something is added.
In the practice of the Tao,
every day something is dropped.

Less and less do you need to force things,
until finally you arrive at non-action.
When nothing is done,
nothing is left undone.
True mastery can be gained
by letting things go their own way.
It can't be gained by interfering.


74. If you realize that all things change,
there is nothing you will try to hold on to.
If you aren't afraid of dying,
there is nothing you can't achieve.
Trying to control the future
is like trying to take the master carpenter's place.

When you handle the master carpenter's tools,
chances are that you'll cut your hand.

  The  Tao Te Ching written by Lao Tzu, from a translation by S. Mitchell