Driven by the mind

When you lose your job your programming will have you look for another job because that's all your mind knows.  The mind will always reach for the same experiences.

I am being shown alternate realities so that deep-seated emotions can show up.  I am experiencing that I will live in Germany and never again return to the states.  Those thoughts horrify me and I have to allow them until all emotions have been released because the mind's programming can never be in charge again, only my True Self can ever be in charge.

I should be comfortable with wherever my body is and whatever my body is doing.  But I am chok-full of emotions and my mind is like a run-away train and I keep being thrown under the train.  I have to release all of my conditioning, all my emotions.  

Nothing can be based on neediness.  I had to leave my children behind in the USA.  It seems like a very cruel joke but it is the road to freedom for all of us.  When I see my children again we will relate to each other on a completely new level.

Reading our bodies

Body painting

The body can be anywhere, but you are not in it, you are nowhere to be found, you are going through your patterned motions.  Your body is in one place and your mind is somewhere else.  You are hiding.

To come out of hiding you have to feel safe.  Wake up where you are. When people don't wake up boredom sets in, so they change the location, move somewhere else, go on vacation.

To be where your body is you have to increase your sample rate, you need to go deeper into your nervous system.  

You learn to ride a bike when you are not riding it after you have been exposed to it, your nervous system adjusts to the motions when there is no chance of falling.

Right now my nervous system is adjusting massively.  I am being exposed to new territory and than I go back to my familiar place to incorporate it.  In other words I am getting bigger, my sample rate is increasing.  

If the sample rate is too big you get overwhelmed, if its too small you get bored.   Recently I have been overwhelmed often.  I suspect this is to get me ready for my next place so that I won't check out when I get there.  The reason why I don't know whats next is because it will blow my gaskets in my present state.  Every day my nervous system is being prepared a lot more, many emotions are coming up.

We are descending into our bodies.  We are becoming aware of everything that is going on with us.   Our bodies hold the answers and we are learning to read our bodies.