No beautiful mind

A beautiful mind - the movie

A beautiful mind is a still mind. 

The mind doesn't want this. The mind doesn't want your life.  The mind wants illusion.  The mind wants the known.  The mind has an emergency exit called illusion.  The mind can't cope with reality.  It is forever looking for something it can recognize. 

Reality is unrecognizable to the mind.  We need to lose our minds completely. 

Action happens without the mind's involvement, but people don't notice this.  They belief that without thought nothing happens.  Thought is far removed from who we really are. In the world of illusion it appears as if the mind is the cause for anything to function.  The mind has no function, it keeps you from reality.

My dad sits in his wheel chair all day long and fabricates illusions and wants his children to participate in them.  We of course can't because our bodies won't allow it because reality will not support needy relationships.  He is dissatisfied with his life and blames everyone else for it.  Bitterness arises when you don't know the difference between illusion and reality.  

The body is always in the present moment while the mind rips everything to pieces.  My relatives want me to visit them.  They put the burden on me to come and see them.  My body is not bringing me to them. They don't see that they are the ones who have to change, not me.  My life does not belong to my mind nor theirs.  My life belongs to my body, the universe made flesh.

Dogs in Heat

No need to carry anything

People hate reality.  They are always escaping reality because they don't want to clean up their own fucking shit, because reality will show you what you need to do to become whole, but instead you run from reality so that you can blame everybody else for your asinine existence.  Looking at your own dysfunction isn't pretty.  It's easier to make others responsible for the mess in your life.

I have been living with my dad at his retirement home for the past 3 weeks.  He can't handle my stillness.  He expects me to act like a dog in heat, talking all the time, moving my body unnecessarily in excitement.  It is bringing out his dysfunction, blaming me for it.  He has been attacking me relentlessly.

People get upset every few seconds and whatever is in their awareness at that moment gets blamed for it. 

There is only one upset, the loss of the present. 

The loss of the present

There is only one upset, the loss of the present.  When you are not present you are upset.  People blame their upset on whatever shows up in their space.

People give me advice based on their illusions.  Their lives aren't working but they tell me what to do. Things show up the last minute and people want to rush it. 

The universe uses bodies to provide for me.  I never have to ask for anything because their bodies always do what they are supposed to while their minds rebel.

For instance my daughter didn't want to visit last Saturday, a 4-hour drive, but she did.  I have no phone nor computer and I needed her.  She came without me asking her.  She said I was lucky that she came.  I said luck has nothing to do with it, your body always does what its supposed to.  

People think their minds move their bodies but that is not true.  The universe is in charge of our bodies.  I don't listen to what people say but watch their bodies what they do.

I never have to ask for anything.  It was very hot and I walk a lot.  I was standing in the shade when an employee of a store came outside.  She told me that I need an umbrella, took me inside the store, grabbed an umbrella and gave it to me.  I didn't have to pay for it.  People give me things because the universe directs their bodies to be of service to me.  When I ask I don't get anything because then the mind is involved.  Nothing ever comes from the mind.  The mind is clueless.

Reality is kind, illusion is brutal

Every moment of your life your mind brutalizes you

The body is always in reality.  The mind can't grasp reality and lives in the world of illusion. 

The mind thinks its in charge, but it isn't, the body is in charge, its the universe made flesh and knows everything. 

The patriarchal world depends on the mind to make life's decisions and it shows.  Illusion is brutal.

The body is capable of running marathons without ever training for them, but the conditioned mind says that's impossible, the harder I work the more I will succeed.  The mind lives in the world of effort and hard work.  It can't accept that things are easy.  We are light, energy, there is no effort.

The body is always comfortably in the present moment, the mind never is, it is always overriding the wisdom of the body, turning you into someone you are not.  Our bodies are directed by the universe which is loving, kind, abundant. When you follow your body you will always know what is real.

Reality check

People seek illusion because its safe and familiar.  Reality is too much to handle, you don't know whats next.  You get to experience the bliss of the moment and than it has to die to make room for the bliss of the next moment.  You are always hanging over a cliff not knowing if something will catch you.  You get to love what shows up instead of rejecting it.  Reality only knows beauty.

When you allow your mind to be in charge you close because the mind is afraid to open.  Anything mental is brutal.  The mind feeds on illusion.

This moment is full of this moment, just show up to the party, without death you cannot come.

Insanity

The conditioned mind can't cope with reality.   In order to let go of illusion the mind has to be tricked.  Illusions are lies, but they have a hold on people who think its real.  

Any communication is no more than a report on a condition within that person, and that condition is insanity.  If you can't be here in this moment without your baggage you are insane.   

You don't get to decide what you are present to.  Presence is beyond the mind.

Adrenaline junkies

The mind wants action all the time.  But there is none.  Reality consists of Being, not doing.  Reality requires non-action, the effortlessness in all things.  Nothing exists for long.

There aren't any explanations for whats going on.  Society is set up to feed the mind.  Motivational speakers keep things alive that are supposed to die.  You are being motivated to hold on.  But you can't hold on, it has to slip away.  You are beating yourself up because you can't get yourself to do things.  You don't need motivation, all you need is death, let go, and what arises is who you truly are.  Doing nothing is where its at.

Stillness

The universe is stillness.  People fill this stillness with their activities thinking that they are mandatory.  No one is forcing anything on you.  Your misconceptions about how things work are running your life.

STOP

Just stop what you are doing.  Illusions will fall away and reality will present itself.  Illusion will keep you busy and up to your neck in problems.  Illusion requires maintenance, reality is presence.

 

If you want your life to work you have to enter into the stillness.

Waking Up

Being able to live in the moment without a past, without a future, without an agenda.   And the mind will do what it does best, fill in the unknown with its own horror stories so that you will go back to the mind and make it your master again.

Planning takes you away from reality.  You put something there because you don’t trust that what shows up naturally is what you really need, is what gives you life.  Reality never makes you leave yourself.  Reality is always kinder than anything you could put there.  Reality carries itself.   When it requires maintenance it is illusion.  Stillness will support you.

The mind screams, 'give me something familiar.'  Soul says, 'you have already done that, lets do something new.'

Oh, why did I sign up for this?  Illusion wasn't so bad when I was asleep.  Why does waking up have to be so cruel?  Because it creates depth.  The upside can only be as high as the downside is low.

Only the mind is moving - Part II

The idea of continuity is an illusion.  We teleport from frame to frame to frame.  And one of these days we will skip frames altogether thus appearing at the place of destination without having driven there.   Our lives will become stranger yet as illusion keeps falling away.

In the world of illusion that which is sane appears insane and that which is insane appears sane.  I am mostly out of my mind, which I find is a good thing.

Our five senses are not an accurate representation of reality.  Things are not as they appear.

Manipulation

Humans are a primitive species and the universe tolerates them, lets them think that they are in charge.

Quantum physics is just another mental trick ‘that which is observed changes.’  Ha ha ha, it changes no matter what because change is all there is and humans have no control over it.  The universe does what she does.

Humans are always manipulating things so that they can dominate their world. EVERY conversation is a manipulation.   You want people to see things your way, want them to agree with you.  You are manipulating your spouse, your kids, your friends and God.  You are manipulating them into doing things.  Prayer is another form of manipulation.  You want something from God.

When you talk to someone, don’t have an agenda, watch what shows up naturally.   When I talk to my kids I never have a preset idea of what I am going to talk about or if I even going to say anything.  I allow it to arise naturally.  They are usually the ones who want something from me.

The self-help movement, taking courses to improve myself so that I can beat myself up even more because I never seem to get it just right.   Or the Law of Attraction, The big Secret, making sure I learn how to manipulate the universe into giving me what I want.  The universe is not going to support my illusion.  Reality is ever-present and all this ‘Doing’ keeps me from seeing it.

I watch the fragile flowers, they don’t resist, they just let everything happen to them.  And that’s what I am going to do.  I am going to allow everything to happen to me without resistance.  I am going to be that flower.