Rescue me

Daniel in the Lions Den

The mind has never been in charge.  People have abandoned their intuition and given in to the pressures of their mind to act when their gut will tell them to wait.  They have given in to their fears.  This entire society is a product of fear.  Life isn't hard, illusion is.  When it requires maintenance its illusion.  Every day your mind is giving you an ass whooping and you accept it.

I have been staying with a friend for a week.  My plan was to fly to Germany last Monday but than the universe told me to wait and I have not been given the go-ahead yet.  People want answers because that's how their minds work, but I don't have any answers, I don't know the outcome of this.  My friend has been pressuring me, she wants to know where she stands.  This is too harsh an environment for me so the universe removed her for 4 weeks to take care of her mother in Texas.  Her two daughters (20 & 24) and husband are here.  The daughters sleep until afternoon and the husband stays in his office most the time, he works from home.  They too want to know so I stay out of sight.

I feel so horribly punished right now but how else are people going to see what their mind is doing to them.  I am here so that they all can witness to trust the universe and not their mind.  I hope this is over soon.  At times I am going out of my mind because my mind cannot grasp how I am going to be rescued, but rescued I will.

I have $1.77, 150 Euros, no car, no phone.  None of these limit my possibilities.  I rely on the universe.

My observations

They think they are fixing the machine.  The machine fixes itself.  The car fixes itself.  That the man fixes the machine is an illusion.  The mechanic doesn't do a thing.

If I need a phone to talk to people than I am not meant to talk to them.

That you have to tell people what to do is an illusion.  Everybody always knows what to do.

You intrude on the universe when you don't wait for what shows up naturally.

Everything gets detonated the moment it is built.  

Every few seconds you get upset and you blame your surroundings for it.  Every few seconds everything dies.   When you are in your mind you are not aware of it.

I don't ever have to go after anything.  Everything comes to me.

The body needs one pair of shoes, the mind needs 100 pairs.

Choice is an illusion, choice = running away.  Always perceive you have a choice and never make it, that's the present.

Sales people have an agenda. They don't know that the universe decides who buys and who doesn't.

I don't change the outside, I change the inside.

The mind is conditioned to only go so far and than it keeps repeating the same loop.  To go further you have to face all your fears.  Facing your fears is the way out.

The thing about reality is that you have to be so flexible that it squeezes your nuts.

I am not doing anything, its doing me.  Gitr done.

Its not the behavior that is insane, its the story about the behavior that's insane.

Self inflicted pain - The editor

Two more weeks and I am out of here, destination still unknown.  My only requirement is to stay in the present moment.  The universe makes all the arrangements.

The pain we cause ourselves by not allowing us to even notice how we edit everything the universe has for us.  By the time the mind is done fucking with it it doesn't even resemble anything worth wanting.  In the present there is only pleasure.

Infinite Posssibilities

In the new energy things work differently, we are becoming flexible.  Things get decided at the moment and not the moment before.  The biggest mistake is assuming things.  In each moment the universe renews itself zillions of times and we put our lives together as close as possible to the moment before.

We have infinite possibilities available and we reduce them by setting up routines so that we have the illusion of control in our lives.   We limit our possibilities by blaming the government, lack of money, circumstances, people.   You are the ones limiting your possibilities, it's never them.

What possibilities are available to me today that I don't see because my patterns have me reaching for the same things, because I don't wait for what shows up naturally.  As long as you belief that your possibilities can be limited you are tied into the system of illusion.

Stillness

The universe is stillness.  People fill this stillness with their activities thinking that they are mandatory.  No one is forcing anything on you.  Your misconceptions about how things work are running your life.

STOP

Just stop what you are doing.  Illusions will fall away and reality will present itself.  Illusion will keep you busy and up to your neck in problems.  Illusion requires maintenance, reality is presence.

 

If you want your life to work you have to enter into the stillness.

Change

I don't have to beg for change because its coming, I can feel it in my bones.  I hate when I don't know what is coming my way, but my body is alerting me that something is up. I have this undeniable feeling in the pit of my stomach.

Change first happens at the cellular level before it shows up in the physical so that when it shows up I won't freak out.  Change is happening faster now and I can't stop it.  All is well when you don't push against the universe, flow with it.

Teaching without saying anything

There is more space in my life.  My mind used to keep me busy and nothing was ever accomplished.  I was always planning and I was never present.   

I met a hardcore saleswoman today.  There are no spaces in her life.  She has the patriarchal mind mentality where more is best.   She didn't even hear me.  She talked at me instead of to me.  To her I didn't exist, only the tape recording in her head. 

The universe orchestrates everything.  Now I get to do my sales job without expectation and without doing anything. 

The Tao Te Ching 

3.  Practice not-doing, and everything will fall into place. 

   
2.  Therefore the Master acts without doing anything and teaches without saying anything.  
She has but doesn't possess, acts but doesn't expect.
When her work is done, she forgets it.  That is why it lasts forever.

47.  The Master achieves without doing a thing.

63.  Act without doing; work without effort.

The Tao Te Ching translated by S. Mitchell

Death and rebirth

Soul to soul can never teach what unto themselves was taught because one has to experience it and words won't give you that experience.  You cannot describe a delicious meal, you have to taste it.

Only my soul has the answers for my life.  No other human being holds anything that is true for me.  Everything I have believed is disappearing.  I am going through death again and I won't know what will be born out of this.

The mind on fire

My mind always comes up with an emergency to pull me out of the present moment. The mind will tell me what to do, when and how to do it. The mind's tricks aren't easily discovered. "You can't sit there and do nothing, you have to get going."  When I am rushing I am on my own, the universe will not support me.  I have to stop and align myself with the universe.  

The other day I was in a hurry to get to my job and I locked myself out. It made me remember that I will always get to where I need to be when I am supposed to be there.

No illusions in my mind and no resistances in my body.  I have to let go of everything including my job and see if I will end up there.  I will get there when I get there.  And no premeditating of what I am going to say.  No more carrying of anything.  I cannot leave the present moment and think that something in the future is more important than what is happening now.  I cannot prepare for the future because it doesn't exist.

Tao Te Ching

38. The Master does nothing,
yet he leaves nothing undone.
The ordinary man is always doing things,
yet many more are left to be done.

48. In pursuit of knowledge,
every day something is added.
In the practice of the Tao,
every day something is dropped.

Less and less do you need to force things,
until finally you arrive at non-action.
When nothing is done,
nothing is left undone.
True mastery can be gained
by letting things go their own way.
It can't be gained by interfering.


74. If you realize that all things change,
there is nothing you will try to hold on to.
If you aren't afraid of dying,
there is nothing you can't achieve.
Trying to control the future
is like trying to take the master carpenter's place.

When you handle the master carpenter's tools,
chances are that you'll cut your hand.

  The  Tao Te Ching written by Lao Tzu, from a translation by S. Mitchell

Leaving the illusion

We are programmed to belief in the same illusions.  Fear has kept me from exploring a world outside the illusion.  Daily I recreated my life to be the same as the day before. 

The mind is here for entertainment only.  The mind is not capable of making life's decisions.

This reminds me on the movie 'The Village'.  People may laugh at the primitive believes. There are other movies like 'Pleasantville'.   Anyone who watches them and disregards them as dumb doesn't see that their lives are just like that.

Letting go of everything I know about anything

I cannot not do what I am doing.  Another big surprise showed up, I am in sales.  After living in isolation for many years I am back in mainstream society.  I went to get some water and ended up getting a sales job.  Its strictly commission.

Manipulation

Humans are a primitive species and the universe tolerates them, lets them think that they are in charge.

Quantum physics is just another mental trick ‘that which is observed changes.’  Ha ha ha, it changes no matter what because change is all there is and humans have no control over it.  The universe does what she does.

Humans are always manipulating things so that they can dominate their world. EVERY conversation is a manipulation.   You want people to see things your way, want them to agree with you.  You are manipulating your spouse, your kids, your friends and God.  You are manipulating them into doing things.  Prayer is another form of manipulation.  You want something from God.

When you talk to someone, don’t have an agenda, watch what shows up naturally.   When I talk to my kids I never have a preset idea of what I am going to talk about or if I even going to say anything.  I allow it to arise naturally.  They are usually the ones who want something from me.

The self-help movement, taking courses to improve myself so that I can beat myself up even more because I never seem to get it just right.   Or the Law of Attraction, The big Secret, making sure I learn how to manipulate the universe into giving me what I want.  The universe is not going to support my illusion.  Reality is ever-present and all this ‘Doing’ keeps me from seeing it.

I watch the fragile flowers, they don’t resist, they just let everything happen to them.  And that’s what I am going to do.  I am going to allow everything to happen to me without resistance.  I am going to be that flower.

My Soul is wild and free

As children we get rewarded (retarded) for good behavior by our parents and in school.  We take this reward system with us into adulthood. 

We tell the universe I am doing a, b and c and now you owe me big time because I have been a good girl/boy.  

We can't manipulate the universe.  The universe operates by her own rules. Get comfortable in this present moment because that’s all we have. 

What works one moment won’t work the next.  The truth in one moment is an untruth in the next because the universe is not stale, it is incredibly flexible. Change is all there is.   

  

BEING

All effort is ignorance.  Force creates duality.  Unconditional Love is Being Without Condition, allowing everything to be as it is.

Life happens in this moment only.  Do you have the nerve to be here or do you force something into this moment that does not belong in it?  If you wait for what shows up naturally you will always have what you need. 

The universe blinks off and on zillions of times each moment, each time creating a brand new universe.  But people put their lives together as close as possible to the previous moment so that it looks familiar, so that they can be safe and bored. 

Stop telling the same old story.  You keep recreating the same things because you can't let go.  Being is scary.  You never know where you may end up.