The First Monkey

Being the 100th monkey is easy, but who is the first monkey?

People go through the same motions day after day never noticing anything, talking about how they could have done things differently or how they are going to change things.  You cannot do anything differently, it's not possible.  Thinking that you have any control over anything  just shows how ignorant and insane you are.

Most people don't want to be where they are.  We cannot change our physical location no matter how hard our minds try to escape from it.  The mind comes up with ideas how to change the physical reality.  I cannot not do what I am doing.  The only choice I have is accepting what is.  The only choice I have is stillness, anything else is insanity and futility.

The mind can only change through direct experience.  You can talk until you are blue in the face, words will not change anybody.  

I am in my body,  I don't use my mind to beat the shit out of myself by planning what I am going to do or by deciding what I want.   I observe my body and allow my body to make all decisions.  If I don't know where I want to go I watch my body where it is taking me, that takes all the guesswork out of my life.  I follow my body, my mind has no input.  My body is always in the present moment, that's how I know what is going on and what needs to be done.  The mind always overrides it and wants to change things.  I don't listen to my mind.  The mind is the most unreliable source there is.  

People never notice anything because they are so stuck in their minds.  People are stuck in their illusions as if it's a matter of life and death.  They are in their minds so that they don't have to notice anything.

Reading our bodies

Body painting

The body can be anywhere, but you are not in it, you are nowhere to be found, you are going through your patterned motions.  Your body is in one place and your mind is somewhere else.  You are hiding.

To come out of hiding you have to feel safe.  Wake up where you are. When people don't wake up boredom sets in, so they change the location, move somewhere else, go on vacation.

To be where your body is you have to increase your sample rate, you need to go deeper into your nervous system.  

You learn to ride a bike when you are not riding it after you have been exposed to it, your nervous system adjusts to the motions when there is no chance of falling.

Right now my nervous system is adjusting massively.  I am being exposed to new territory and than I go back to my familiar place to incorporate it.  In other words I am getting bigger, my sample rate is increasing.  

If the sample rate is too big you get overwhelmed, if its too small you get bored.   Recently I have been overwhelmed often.  I suspect this is to get me ready for my next place so that I won't check out when I get there.  The reason why I don't know whats next is because it will blow my gaskets in my present state.  Every day my nervous system is being prepared a lot more, many emotions are coming up.

We are descending into our bodies.  We are becoming aware of everything that is going on with us.   Our bodies hold the answers and we are learning to read our bodies.

The interpreter

My mind looks at my life and interprets it according to what it knows.  Right now my mind is saying: "This doesn't look good."

I have to be out of here by the end of the month and I still don't know where I am going.  Terror is the response to that.

By not knowing where I am going everything that has been stored in my cells is being released, all the insanity, all the illusions, all the fear-based patriarchal programming has to surface so that it can be transmuted.   6,000 years worth of stuff is showing up.

I don't know where I am going but my body knows.  My mind keeps telling me that I am not ready.  What does my mind know.  It has a preconceived idea of what my life is supposed to look like.  It can't possibly figure out what's next.  The body knows everything.  I am trusting my body over listening to my mind.

People without bodies

 

When you are not in your body you are not at home.  You are nowhere to be found. 

You allow your mind to abuse your body by forcing it to do things.   Let your body move your body and life will be gentle.   You will always be where you need to be and have what you need.  Your body always knows what needs to be taken care off and your mind often overrides it.    Your home is your body.  When your mind is in control you are beating the living daylights out of your existence.

Notice your body.  Is it relaxed?  How is your breathing?  Do you hold your breath?  When you relax your body you turn control over to your body.

Letting your body make decisions is scary because you have to come out of hiding.  I never know what I am going to do until I do it.  That way I am always present in this moment and not planning the future moment.

I never have a To-Do list.  I got married that way and divorced, I recently moved that way, everything ran smoothly because people are always where they are supposed to be, doing exactly what they are supposed to do to support me.