Sustenance enters where there is space

To transmute the heavy energies of the patriarchy they have to be felt, and they feel horrendous, enough to want to run from them.  All of the collective memories have to be released from the cells.

These energies feel like mental attacks, extreme fear where literally every cell in the body shakes as to vibrate them loose so that they can transmute into the light.

These attacks feel real and I want to find patriarchal solutions.  For instance, survival issues are still very strong energies keeping this planet captive.  I want to bail myself out and solve it the patriarchal way by getting a job or applying for food stamps, instead I have to wait for the universe to rescue me, and she decides how and when this is going to happen.  I have to sweat it out and sit with these energies, there is no escaping them.

We got lost in the dream.  We are energy, not biology.

The Tao Te Ching

Practice non-doing and everything will fall into place.  (3)

Therefore the master takes action by letting things take their course. (64)

Can you remain unmoving till the right action arises by itself? (15)

Less and less do you need to force things until finally you arrive at non-action. (48)

That which has no substance enters where there is no space.  This shows the value of non-action. (43).

No illusions allowed in the new world

Live doesn't require any thinking only relaxing into this moment, breathing fully.  When I have managed my breath the next step shows up.

I always have more than what I need.  My mind will tell me otherwise, but I am not listening.  With every experience I tune out my mind more and more.  The mind is a liar, it doesn't have a correct representation of what's going on.

If you realize that you have enough, you are truly rich.  (Tao Te Ching, translated by S. Mitchell)

People are tired and weary of their senseless struggles, but we cannot take any illusions with us into the new world.  We are the freedom fighters by experiencing and transmuting the horrors that have taken place over the ages.  Its like sorting through piles of debris, only its not a physical pile.  By feeling the energies they are being transmuted, there is no doing required.  Any acting upon them will only prolong them.  We are the ones who get to experience all the fears and there is no one who will save us.  We have to walk through them.

Why I quit my job

The boss is telling me what to do.  

Her mind wants to direct my body to get things done.

Not even my mind gets to direct my body.

My body directs itself.  My body is always where its supposed to be.

My mind follows my body and not the other way around.

My body feels heavy when the mind is in charge.  It won't carry illusion.

I couldn't tell them the real reason for quitting my job because they don't understand this paradox:

Do nothing and accomplish everything.  (Tao Te Ching, translated by S. Mitchell).

Society still believes that working hard is the road to success, which creates a very small world, one in which they can be in control.  In their world of illusion it is insane to do nothing and therefore they would label me insane if they knew what is driving me.

In the world of illusion that which is sane appears insane and that which is insane appears sane.  On my road to sanity I see these things and I don't get sucked into living the patriarchal way.

The force in the world of illusion is ignorance, it will sweep you away.  The force of stillness carries great wisdom.

Rushing into action

The patriarchal ways are all about rushing, forcing and pushing.  There is no wisdom.  I couldn't even quit my job without them giving me the 3rd degree, they didn't want me to leave and tried to coax me into staying.  Just because I am good at something doesn't mean I have to keep doing it.

I am going to move very soon.  Where, I don't know.  That's the adventure.  When I am done the next thing shows up and I never know what it is, its always a surprise.  It is up to me to discern when it is time to quit, fear can keep me lingering longer than necessary.  People will try to prevent me from moving on.  I always have to quit first before the next thing shows up, otherwise quitting would be easy.  I always have to jump into the unknown.

The Tao Te Ching

64.  Rushing into action, you fail.
Trying to grasp things, you lose them.
Forcing a project to completion,
you ruin what was almost ripe.

Therefore the Master takes action
by letting things take their course.
He remains as calm
at the end as at the beginning.

The Tao Te Ching   translated by S. Mitchell

Teaching without saying anything

There is more space in my life.  My mind used to keep me busy and nothing was ever accomplished.  I was always planning and I was never present.   

I met a hardcore saleswoman today.  There are no spaces in her life.  She has the patriarchal mind mentality where more is best.   She didn't even hear me.  She talked at me instead of to me.  To her I didn't exist, only the tape recording in her head. 

The universe orchestrates everything.  Now I get to do my sales job without expectation and without doing anything. 

The Tao Te Ching 

3.  Practice not-doing, and everything will fall into place. 

   
2.  Therefore the Master acts without doing anything and teaches without saying anything.  
She has but doesn't possess, acts but doesn't expect.
When her work is done, she forgets it.  That is why it lasts forever.

47.  The Master achieves without doing a thing.

63.  Act without doing; work without effort.

The Tao Te Ching translated by S. Mitchell

The path not traveled

How on earth did we get off the path?  Were we ever on it? 

When my addictions are gone life is harmonious.  By addictions I mean wanting to go places when I am home; doing things when I am not doing anything; wanting people around when I am alone.  An addiction is wanting something other than what is showing up.  Being in the past or future, anything that keeps me from being here is an addiction.  This moment alone is real.  Knowing that this moment supports me and provides everything I need.

The Tao Te Ching
 
64.  Rushing into action, you fail.
Trying to grasp things, you lose them.
Forcing a project to completion,
you ruin what was almost ripe.

Therefore the Master takes action
by letting things take their course.
He remains as calm
at the end as at the beginning.
He has nothing,
thus has nothing to lose.
What he desires is non-desire;
what he learns is to unlearn.
He simply reminds people
of who they have always been.
He cares about nothing but the Tao.
Thus he can care for all things.

The Tao Te Ching translated by S. Mitchell

The mind on fire

My mind always comes up with an emergency to pull me out of the present moment. The mind will tell me what to do, when and how to do it. The mind's tricks aren't easily discovered. "You can't sit there and do nothing, you have to get going."  When I am rushing I am on my own, the universe will not support me.  I have to stop and align myself with the universe.  

The other day I was in a hurry to get to my job and I locked myself out. It made me remember that I will always get to where I need to be when I am supposed to be there.

No illusions in my mind and no resistances in my body.  I have to let go of everything including my job and see if I will end up there.  I will get there when I get there.  And no premeditating of what I am going to say.  No more carrying of anything.  I cannot leave the present moment and think that something in the future is more important than what is happening now.  I cannot prepare for the future because it doesn't exist.

Tao Te Ching

38. The Master does nothing,
yet he leaves nothing undone.
The ordinary man is always doing things,
yet many more are left to be done.

48. In pursuit of knowledge,
every day something is added.
In the practice of the Tao,
every day something is dropped.

Less and less do you need to force things,
until finally you arrive at non-action.
When nothing is done,
nothing is left undone.
True mastery can be gained
by letting things go their own way.
It can't be gained by interfering.


74. If you realize that all things change,
there is nothing you will try to hold on to.
If you aren't afraid of dying,
there is nothing you can't achieve.
Trying to control the future
is like trying to take the master carpenter's place.

When you handle the master carpenter's tools,
chances are that you'll cut your hand.

  The  Tao Te Ching written by Lao Tzu, from a translation by S. Mitchell