Driven by the mind

When you lose your job your programming will have you look for another job because that's all your mind knows.  The mind will always reach for the same experiences.

I am being shown alternate realities so that deep-seated emotions can show up.  I am experiencing that I will live in Germany and never again return to the states.  Those thoughts horrify me and I have to allow them until all emotions have been released because the mind's programming can never be in charge again, only my True Self can ever be in charge.

I should be comfortable with wherever my body is and whatever my body is doing.  But I am chok-full of emotions and my mind is like a run-away train and I keep being thrown under the train.  I have to release all of my conditioning, all my emotions.  

Nothing can be based on neediness.  I had to leave my children behind in the USA.  It seems like a very cruel joke but it is the road to freedom for all of us.  When I see my children again we will relate to each other on a completely new level.

Enlightenment

When were you this carefree

You are already enlightened, you just don't know it.

Everything is energy, speedy Gonzales, roadrunner energy.  We are light traveling at incredible speed.  Your mind is slowing you down.  The mind is an obstruction in the wheel of life, it will bring you to a screeching halt.  It will put a heavy burden on you.  We were never meant to carry anything.

When your illusions match someone else's illusions they call it Love.  In the world of illusion love is impossible.   It's neediness disguised as love.

"I help people."  You are full of it.  You are only interested in you.  No one needs you.  If you were honest with yourself you wouldn't be doing most of the things you are doing. 

You want to appear nice and needed.  Your mind has built such an enormous illusion about yourself and you think that is who you really are.  You keep the imaginary you alive.  You are building illusion like crazy to protect who you used to be and never were.  If you knew who you really are you'd freak out.

When two opposing forces meet you can expect action.  My illusions are being busted.  Right now I don't feel so good.

You are light.

Mind fields

Every day you navigate through the mine field of your mind.  You fight with reality because you want it your way.  If you could accept what shows up there would be no problem.  The mind resists everything.

We are taught the more we use our minds the smarter we are.  So we use our minds to get what we want.  We never get what we want.  You have to let go of everything.  The universe won't be manipulated.  Things change, but you are not the one who changes them.

There is only energy, that's all there is.  Everything else is a story.  When your mind is in charge you will listen to those stories.  The mind creates illusion, that's all its capable off.  You can stop the dream any time you want to.

 

In the new energy nothing shows up before its needed.

Self inflicted pain - The editor

Two more weeks and I am out of here, destination still unknown.  My only requirement is to stay in the present moment.  The universe makes all the arrangements.

The pain we cause ourselves by not allowing us to even notice how we edit everything the universe has for us.  By the time the mind is done fucking with it it doesn't even resemble anything worth wanting.  In the present there is only pleasure.

Ripple Effects

When we force things we create ripple effects of immense proportions.  When a butterfly flaps its wings it influences the weather on the other side of the planet.  Now imagine when things get forced, it ripples out and comes back picking up everything of like vibration like a magnet.   Energy works circular, so you always have to clean up your own mess and it will keep you busy.

A small change in one place in a complex system can have large effects elsewhere.

Never have an agenda but observe where its going on its own.  No meddling, no manipulating.  Purity of action will show up.  But mainly there won't be any action required.

The Western mind has been conditioned to aggressively pursue things, to go after them.  This behavior is greatly praised.  We are taught to beat ourselves up.  Taking care of ourselves is considered selfish and lazy.  We are always supposed to be there for someone else, to always put out.  Neediness is encouraged.  Life has no strings attached, but we are taught to hold on and never let go.

Male women

When you live inside the illusion you don't notice anything.  The way things are set up is not normal but is the norm.  I am supposed to be of value to society.  I am to be here for others.  If I am here for others than they are supposed to be here for me.  That creates neediness.  People are afraid of their own power and there is nothing I can do about it.  I cannot set someone free who doesn't want to be set free. 

What is the epitome of femininity?  Women have become men for whatever reason.  What is the epitome of masculinity?  I would love to experience that.  I yearn for that kind of relationship where I don't need him so that I can have him.  Where I don't need anything so that I can have everything.