When the mind is in charge

What your life looks like when your mind is in charge

If you bring something into this moment that doesn’t belong there it’s earth shattering, it’s like an earthquake.  If the flapping of the wings of the butterfly changes the weather patterns all the way across the continent in another country how much more shattering are the useless conversations people engage in?  Life is ok until people open their mouths.  People really think they are smart when they try to solve problems.  The mind makes up problems, that’s the only thing the mind is good at.  When I have an agenda for this moment my life looks like the desert; there is no abundance nor beauty because the mind sees only lack and ugliness.   

A still mind is the greatest beauty there is because then you can see the beauty and abundance that’s everywhere and the perfection that’s in everything.  The outside is the reflection of the inside.  What you focus on gets strengthened.  Stillness has no problems.  Before I interact with the world I sit in stillness until all the ripples have dissipated and have no effect on me, so that the ripples of the world can’t create havoc in my life.

When the mind is still there is only beauty and abundance

Being true to myself in the world of illusion

Can I be free each moment where I don't sell myself or carry anything, where I don't have an agenda no matter what?  

The mind always intervenes and comes up with a story where we either love the moment or hate it depending on the story.  

When there is no story the truth can be revealed and my behavior will change.  People will pull me into their illusions if I let them.  They will squeeze me into their iron mold where I suffocate.  They have expectations of me and I am supposed to live up to them.  I can't and won't do it anymore. 

Can I live in the world of illusion and still be my true Self? 

Yes, I can.

Attitude problem

 Just shove it up your ...

I can no longer function inside the illusion.  I am quite happy about that.  But what do I do with my sales job?  They still operate in the old patriarchal way and I don't fit into that anymore.   They can just shove it up their....

Now I get to live in the present moment and see what shows up in each moment, to not have an agenda even when the people around me have one.  Where I don't leave myself anymore just to please my boss.

Letting go of everything I know about anything

I cannot not do what I am doing.  Another big surprise showed up, I am in sales.  After living in isolation for many years I am back in mainstream society.  I went to get some water and ended up getting a sales job.  Its strictly commission.

Waking Up

Being able to live in the moment without a past, without a future, without an agenda.   And the mind will do what it does best, fill in the unknown with its own horror stories so that you will go back to the mind and make it your master again.

Planning takes you away from reality.  You put something there because you don’t trust that what shows up naturally is what you really need, is what gives you life.  Reality never makes you leave yourself.  Reality is always kinder than anything you could put there.  Reality carries itself.   When it requires maintenance it is illusion.  Stillness will support you.

The mind screams, 'give me something familiar.'  Soul says, 'you have already done that, lets do something new.'

Oh, why did I sign up for this?  Illusion wasn't so bad when I was asleep.  Why does waking up have to be so cruel?  Because it creates depth.  The upside can only be as high as the downside is low.

Manipulation

Humans are a primitive species and the universe tolerates them, lets them think that they are in charge.

Quantum physics is just another mental trick ‘that which is observed changes.’  Ha ha ha, it changes no matter what because change is all there is and humans have no control over it.  The universe does what she does.

Humans are always manipulating things so that they can dominate their world. EVERY conversation is a manipulation.   You want people to see things your way, want them to agree with you.  You are manipulating your spouse, your kids, your friends and God.  You are manipulating them into doing things.  Prayer is another form of manipulation.  You want something from God.

When you talk to someone, don’t have an agenda, watch what shows up naturally.   When I talk to my kids I never have a preset idea of what I am going to talk about or if I even going to say anything.  I allow it to arise naturally.  They are usually the ones who want something from me.

The self-help movement, taking courses to improve myself so that I can beat myself up even more because I never seem to get it just right.   Or the Law of Attraction, The big Secret, making sure I learn how to manipulate the universe into giving me what I want.  The universe is not going to support my illusion.  Reality is ever-present and all this ‘Doing’ keeps me from seeing it.

I watch the fragile flowers, they don’t resist, they just let everything happen to them.  And that’s what I am going to do.  I am going to allow everything to happen to me without resistance.  I am going to be that flower.

Not my True Self

Every day you allow your mind to run (ruin) your life.  What you get is worry, repetition and boredom because that’s all the mind knows.  

The mind is like an alcoholic that needs its fix.  When the mind doesn’t get what it has always gotten it will go berserk.