Sovereign Solitude

How did I not see this coming?  I haven’t gone deep enough.  No external source is going to save me.  Not one of my thoughts is going to lift me out of this descent.  Nothing works, nothing can remove my agony.  There are no options left except to sit it out and wait for it to turn on its own.  Even then, will it only be a short-lived relief before I have to descend further into my soul. 

God’s hand isn’t going to show me any mercy by picking me up out of this anguish before it’s time.  I am not struggling against it nor resisting it.  I don’t have the strength to escape nor run from it.  I abide in this condition and accept my predicament.  All my studies have become futile, none of them can help me now.  

When will this fearful sense of self fall away?  When will I experience bliss for longer than a few moments?   This is what it takes to dissolve my ego and personality.   In order to go on I must go through this.  This is not the first time I have faced the dark night of the soul.

Stolen Lives

Your mind has highjacked you.  We are trained to belief that the mind is the master and to take it seriously.  The mind is here for entertainment only and not to make life’s decisions.  Do you know how much abuse you are taking from your mind on a daily basis?  No one else is abusing you as much as you do. 

Probably the greatest fear is: ‘How will I survive if I don’t use my mind.’  This fear keeps the mind in the position of the master putting you right back into slavery.  But the ego won’t let you see this.  It claims: ‘The more you use your mind, the smarter you are.’  Intelligence does not come from the mind.  We were born intelligent and the mind makes you stupid, its that simple.  The mind robs you of everything, its a thief.

If your mind is in charge you will read this and think 'that woman is off the rocker.'  In a world that is still governed by the mind it will appear that way.

There was a time where people believed the world was flat and than they learned otherwise.  Columbus had to get the terrified sailors drunk to get them on his ships and sail beyond the horizon.  We are again at the brink of a horrendous paradigm shift, but people are terrified to let go of their minds. Just like the sailors they think they will surely die.