Monday, September 30, 2013

The Abyss that isn't there

The mind wants things to move along quicker because it is not aware of the massive energetic changes that are constantly going on.  Movement reinforces our 3D existence.  There is a still point deep within us.  When we become aware of that still point we can feel the flux of the universe.  Moment to moment, day to day, everything is always changing.
The mind is coming up with all kinds of ideas about the ascension process because it wants action.  It wants something to happen.  It wants to escape its own death.  You will go out of your mind.

Stillness is what’s happening. 

Learn to not know anything about this moment.  Its about being here without an agenda.  There is a lot of movement internally.  I am aware of the internal preparations.  Sometimes I get a glimpse of what is to come and even that tiny glimpse is almost too much.

Eleven months ago my son was in an accident, which resulted in bills of about half a million to put him back together.  The first hospital failed the deadline to file a claim with the insurance company and now we owe them nothing. 

If I force something I reinforce my old self.  When I wait for what shows up naturally everything is super easy.  A paradigm shift and patience is what’s needed.

This process is really tough on the mind because it always has to find new pathways, new approaches, gain new insights. But it gets easier once you get used to dangling over the abyss that isn't there.

W-A-I-T-I-N-G  and  B-R-E-A-T-H-I-N-G.

This moment prepares me for the next.


Tuesday, September 24, 2013

Find your own rhythm. Its your signature and your power.

I can be still because I am silenced no more
I have been thinking about my own breath a lot lately and noticed that that breath is creating my space, the place no one can take away from me.

In the world of illusion that which appears sane is insane and that which appears insane is sane.  In the world of illusion we are constantly asked to leave ourselves and to abuse ourselves by being rushed along and by doing, doing, doing.

I don't have to get anywhere.  I am already there.  You are all you'll ever need.

Everything wants my attention.  The daily grind will wear you out.  The mind is the greatest source of energy loss by thinking about what you ought to be doing.

I don't waste energy on what I think should get done.  I just do it when my body is ready.  My life has simplified incredibly.  Do you trust your mind or do you trust your soul.

Is the outside world distracting me or do I stay within my own rhythm where I am not being dominated, not even by my own mind. 

Breathing has become my most important asset.

Friday, September 20, 2013


Every cell in my body is disintegrating.  Nothing good is in sight.  My body is here but I am not.  Everything is too much.  Getting up in the morning is like coming back from the dead.  My body aches horribly even so I do everything I can to assist it.  I feel very heavy and can barely move.

The upcoming equinox is supposed to be a turning point.  Right now it doesn't look like anything.  Just barely hanging in there.

Monday, September 16, 2013

What is going on?

I have no recollection of the last 5 days.  It seems that my life has been wiped out.  Yet, I don't feel that I am in a new space either.  Something drastic happened last night that I am not consciously aware of.  I feel like the next 3 months have already happened and my physical body is lagging behind. I have never been in such a time warp.  This has been quite the upgrade, closer to home.

I am incorporating a lot of new, intense energies, which makes me freeze and shiver on this hot summers day.  This is a sign that I am in a new dimension.  I don't want to be around anyone, I can't relate to them anymore.  3D, what is that?

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

Very soon . . .

My soul is telling me to be still; to stay in my body; to have no agenda; to breathe and feel. . . . and that its not going to be the way I think.

In about 3 months time my life will be changed forever.

A persistent butterfly was fluttering around my legs to get my attention and landed on the doormat, staying there.  I said, I get it.

Tuesday, September 3, 2013

Big changes are on the way

The universe knows everything, but it will not give out information to the ego.  If you want your life to work you have to be aligned all the time, not just occasionally.

I am getting much, much smaller.  You have to live at the level of atoms.  There is no next moment.  If there is a next moment you are too big.

People don't allow themselves to relax into their bodies.  They are still in the fight or flight mode.  Society taught us to use our heads, to think and prepare, that without preparation nothing is going to happen.

My life has become even more spacious.  The mind can't multitask, multitasking makes people stupid.  I was still using my mind too much and it wore me out.  Trying to get things done overwhelms me and makes my body feel heavy.  My mind reorganized itself at a higher level and I am lighter again.  The mind is totally unimportant, its here for entertainment only and not to make decisions.

The universe never repeats itself, therefore you have to wait for what shows up naturally.  You are always out of alignment because you go ahead and do what you have always done.  It doesn't fit anymore.  The universe has moved on but you haven't.  You are always behind, missing everything.  That's why things aren't working.

What we think the body needs is not what the body really needs.  We were taught to eat a certain way because of politics.   My diet is changing and I trust my body to show me what I need to function optimally, and that always changes.  We have to be ultra flexible.

You have your own space, your own timetable, yet people try to rush you, coerce you to leave yourself, expect you to be just like them.  I am becoming even more self-absorbed.  People meet me and already they have a program for me.  People see you as they are, not as you are.  I am clashing with people because they won't let me be.  I will not participate in their illusions.  Their life happens in their heads, they hallucinate.  Everything is made up.  Very few people are present.

Last night I had a dream that my family home burned down.  There was enough time to gather some things, but I left it all behind and walked out with a baby.  This means that I am leaving everything behind, there is a new beginning.  Change is on the way.  Am I ready for this?