As always, great insights, great highs are followed by a deep down spiral and death, schizophrenia even, getting schlepped all over the place. I feel dead and empty, no connection to 3D really. Its' not so bad.
I feel so disconnected and I am grateful that I am at least busy. I have been wondering whats been going on.
Now that I am writing this down I can see clearly why I have been feeling so empty. Its part of the process. An upswing will come again, riding the wave.
I have no predictions. No idea where this is going. Losing my mind and feeling ecstatic about it.