My threshold was too low to handle my life. My system reorganized itself at a higher level. The events in my life pushed me over the edge so that my old map of dealing with things could be replaced with a new map. However, it didn't last long. I am back to being pushed over the edge again. This will continue at ever greater intervals. In other words, my life sucks.
Ilya Prigogine's theory on system reorganization explained.