Saturday, July 30, 2011

Nature is our teacher

Why do birds fly effortlessly through the air without crashing into anything?  Because they follow their bodies.  They don't stop in mid air asking: "What should I do? How should I do this? What do I need?"  They trust their innate navigational system.  Humans also have this system, but they use their minds to override it.  

The mind is manual, slow, tedious, with nothing but errors.  It's defect.  The innate system is automatic, quick, effortless and you get to enjoy the ride.

People labor when they think.  They are always figuring out how they are going to do something and when they are going to do it, they have 'To Do' lists and shopping lists.  In their mind they have to reach a destination and everything in between goes unnoticed.

Our minds cripple us and hold us back.  We are so much more. 

Friday, July 29, 2011

Pure consciousness

I am always shown several possibilities so that I don't know what's going to happen.  It keeps me in the present moment.  I have to be able to live without hanging on to anything.  I have to be able to not seek the familiar but be here as pure consciousness without expectations, without familiarity.  I have to bring the unknown into each moment.  Opposites also show up so that I know what is in my heart.

It happens to me all the time where I get dragged through the mud, where I have to give up everything, where only this moment exists. 

My daughter went back to the US.  I have to stay here until I get the ok to go back to the US also. 

Thursday, July 28, 2011

The First Monkey

Being the 100th monkey is easy, but who is the first monkey?

People go through the same motions day after day never noticing anything, talking about how they could have done things differently or how they are going to change things.  You cannot do anything differently, it's not possible.  Thinking that you have any control over anything  just shows how ignorant and insane you are.

Most people don't want to be where they are.  We cannot change our physical location no matter how hard our minds try to escape from it.  The mind comes up with ideas how to change the physical reality.  I cannot not do what I am doing.  The only choice I have is accepting what is.  The only choice I have is stillness, anything else is insanity and futility.

The mind can only change through direct experience.  You can talk until you are blue in the face, words will not change anybody.  

I am in my body,  I don't use my mind to beat the shit out of myself by planning what I am going to do or by deciding what I want.   I observe my body and allow my body to make all decisions.  If I don't know where I want to go I watch my body where it is taking me, that takes all the guesswork out of my life.  I follow my body, my mind has no input.  My body is always in the present moment, that's how I know what is going on and what needs to be done.  The mind always overrides it and wants to change things.  I don't listen to my mind.  The mind is the most unreliable source there is.  

People never notice anything because they are so stuck in their minds.  People are stuck in their illusions as if it's a matter of life and death.  They are in their minds so that they don't have to notice anything.

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Return to Your Soul - Rumi


When I get lost in the world of illusion and lose sight of who I am I need this reminder


So come, return to the root of the root of your own soul.

"For ages you have come and gone
courting this delusion.
For ages you have run from the pain
and forfeited the ecstasy.
So come, return to the root of the root
of your own soul.

Although you appear in earthly form
Your essence is pure Consciousness.
You are the fearless guardian
of Divine Light.
So come, return to the root of the root
of your own soul.

When you lose all sense of self
the bonds of a thousand chains will vanish.
Lose yourself completely,
Return to the root of the root
of your own soul.

You descended from Adam, by the pure Word of God,
but you turned your sight
to the empty show of this world.
Alas, how can you be satisfied with so little?
So come, return to the root of the root
of your own soul.

Why are you so enchanted by this world
when a mine of gold lies within you?
Open your eyes and come -
Return to the root of the root
of your own soul.

You were born from the rays of God's Majesty
when the stars were in their perfect place.
How long will you suffer from the blows
of a nonexistent hand?
So come, return to the root of the root
of your own soul.

You are a ruby encased in granite.
How long will you deceive Us with this outer show?
O friend, We can see the truth in your eyes!
So come, return to the root of the root
of your own soul.

After one moment with that glorious Friend
you became loving, radiant, and ecstatic.
Your eyes were sweet and full of fire.
Come, return to the root of the root
of your own soul.

Shams-e Tabriz, the King of the Tavern
has handed you an eternal cup,
And God in all His glory is pouring the wine.
So come! Drink!
Return to the root of the root
of your own soul.

Soul of all souls, life of all life - you are That.
Seen and unseen, moving and unmoving - you are That.
The road that leads to the City is endless;
Go without head and feet
and you'll already be there.
What else could you be? - you are That."

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

I am in Germany


My daughter (20) bought me a ticket to Munich, Germany from Charlotte, North Carolina.  She had a stand-by ticket for herself and managed to get on the same flight.

People are caught up in their dramas, their pain bodies dictate their lives and there is nothing I can do to snap them out of it.  Pain is all they know.  

Everyone of my relatives is at each others throat blaming the other for their misery.  My dad goes back eons of what happened back than and he won't let go.  I can't talk to him about anything without him getting upset, so I am quiet, even that upsets him.  

The tape in his head is repeating the same old ugly stories about the disappointment in his sons and life in general.  He can't be pleased because his mental body runs his life and the mind is the greatest hell hole there ever was.  The illusion it fabricates is inhumane.  The mind won't allow love, gentleness, beauty because it doesn't see it.

The universe will rescue me from this cruelty.  At this point I am kind of fed up with all the drama wherever I go.

Saturday, July 2, 2011

The power of stillness

The mind has one story only and that is hardship.  Reality is gentle.  The hardest part is letting go of illusion.  The time in between when illusion leaves and reality shows up, the mind has a hay day with the time in between.  If it were easy we all would have left illusion already.

There is a reason why 99.99% is stillness and only .01% is action.  Because the .01% action is all you can handle, it is that explosive and powerful.  Stillness increases our capacity to be powerful.

We are not used to not doing.  Doing is all we know.  Its been drilled into us.  Most the time nothing is happening and you are looking at the daisies because our nervous system goes through powerful preparations. 

When you are in your body you are automatically connected to the present. You have no agenda and the next moment isn't even on your mind.

Friday, July 1, 2011


Whenever something wants to come into my life I have to also energetically experience the opposite.  Its not about letting go but about giving everything up completely and than watching what shows up naturally.  

You cannot have one without the other.  People avoid the downside but you cannot have the upside without going down, down, down into the pits of hell.  Following the universe is a maddening walk through hell because you are not getting to keep any illusions.  All of that has to leave our existence. 

I spent the last few days experiencing the downside.  With experiencing I don't mean going through it physically but feeling the vibrations of the downside.  It feels as if its real.  I had to experience the vibrations of loneliness, homelessness, being destitute, not belonging anywhere, being poor; giving up my children as if I will never see them again, the same way Abraham was to sacrifice his son, every illusion that connects us has to leave, I belief its an ongoing thing with my children.  There can't be any emotional attachment with them nor neediness.  

I had to go that low because the residues of those vibrations in my cellular structure are there and to transmute them I had to feel them.