Saturday, April 30, 2011

Die already, don't let the mind decide what's next

Lulu and Sabine

Never reach for the next moment.

The mind doesn't know anything, yet pretends to be the master of everything.   The mind is ignorant and you put it on the throne of your life, you made it your master, and you are its slave.  

The mind with its neediness and worries is incapable of seeing beauty and abundance.   It  can't see anything real.

Planning is a function of the mind.  When you can't look beyond the mind you are always planning and worrying about the future and you will waste your energy because you will always give in to your mind's fears.  

Without the mind's interference you can just Be, the observer of all things.  When you don't plan you will lose illusion.  You will never lose what is real.   In each moment let go of everything you know about anything.

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Choice is an illusion


Always perceive you have a choice and never make it, that's the present.  The present is the only gift there is.

What if everything could massage you?  Love everything.  Give love to everything you see.  Relax into each moment and see what it has for you.  

Humanity has lost its way, this is the way back.

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Adrenaline junkies

The mind wants action all the time.  But there is none.  Reality consists of Being, not doing.  Reality requires non-action, the effortlessness in all things.  Nothing exists for long.

There aren't any explanations for whats going on.  Society is set up to feed the mind.  Motivational speakers keep things alive that are supposed to die.  You are being motivated to hold on.  But you can't hold on, it has to slip away.  You are beating yourself up because you can't get yourself to do things.  You don't need motivation, all you need is death, let go, and what arises is who you truly are.  Doing nothing is where its at.

Friday, April 22, 2011


There is no place to go except the present moment.   If you are not here you are delusional, diluting the present moment, you have no power, no influence.

For you to be here everything has to die, the past, the future.   You cannot bring a prepared response to this moment.  If you already have an expectation of what its supposed to look like you are in trouble, its like stale bread.   Allowing each moment its own breath will bring life to it.

Thursday, April 21, 2011

I am leaving the nest

Everything suddenly and radically changed again.  I have never felt so much ease.  Everything falls into place naturally and easily when the conditioned mind is not in charge.  Things arrange themselves without me doing anything.

I feel myself coming out of a very long inward journey.  I am shown that I am leaving the nest and I get to reconnect with life again.  I don't have to figure out how and when this is going to happen.

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

The New World

I have reached the tipping point.  Functioning in the 3D world has become impossible, my vibration doesn't match.  I have to move out of here next month.  What used to take years is now being accomplished in moments. 

The reason why I don't know where I am going is because I am not yet ready to know.  I still have to be fully here and not in my new place.  Being present in each moment is the preparation for what is next.  I have to trust that whatever shows up is perfect and much better than what I could come up with.  I am not really enjoying this, its nerve wrecking, but what can I do, its the new way of being.

Monday, April 18, 2011

Losing everything is only an illusion

You hold on to illusion for dear life because you believe its real.  What is it going to take for you to let go of illusion?  You can never lose what is real. 

There are ascension forums defending their illusions, whining about how rough it is to be a lightworker, a wayshower.  A wayshower of what?  A wayshower back into the illusion?  You want to keep your illusions so that you won't have to go out of your mind.  You haven't even started going out of your mind.  Each moment holds death and birth.  Nothing is familiar anymore.

That we are evolving at breathtaking speed, this is real.

Sunday, April 17, 2011

We are on death row - depth row

To move forward we have to let go of all illusions.   The mind is no longer in charge, its not the master but the servant.   We have to let go of everything we know, our worries, our stories.

People want change but they don't want to change.  They want more money so that they don't have to change.   Money is an illusion and its being taken away.  People are afraid of loss because they don't know what its going to be replaced with.  In their minds if you take away money than poverty must follow.   But that is the mind filling in what it has experienced in the past.  In the patriarchal system that is what could be expected.  But that system is an illusion and we are being shown a new way of being which sets the mind off.  The mind can't handle this.

Living outside the illusion means death and it doesn't feel good.   Every moment is a new beginning, but it is preceded by death.  People don't want to go there, but you have to.  Go there and stay there until it turns on its own.

You can only go as high as you can go low.  We are on death row - depth row.  Without death there is no depth.  People interfere with this process.  They avoid going into the depth of death.   If you observe it instead of fighting it the upside will show up.

Thursday, April 14, 2011

Ripple Effects

When we force things we create ripple effects of immense proportions.  When a butterfly flaps its wings it influences the weather on the other side of the planet.  Now imagine when things get forced, it ripples out and comes back picking up everything of like vibration like a magnet.   Energy works circular, so you always have to clean up your own mess and it will keep you busy.

A small change in one place in a complex system can have large effects elsewhere.

Never have an agenda but observe where its going on its own.  No meddling, no manipulating.  Purity of action will show up.  But mainly there won't be any action required.

The Western mind has been conditioned to aggressively pursue things, to go after them.  This behavior is greatly praised.  We are taught to beat ourselves up.  Taking care of ourselves is considered selfish and lazy.  We are always supposed to be there for someone else, to always put out.  Neediness is encouraged.  Life has no strings attached, but we are taught to hold on and never let go.

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Sustenance enters where there is space

To transmute the heavy energies of the patriarchy they have to be felt, and they feel horrendous, enough to want to run from them.  All of the collective memories have to be released from the cells.

These energies feel like mental attacks, extreme fear where literally every cell in the body shakes as to vibrate them loose so that they can transmute into the light.

These attacks feel real and I want to find patriarchal solutions.  For instance, survival issues are still very strong energies keeping this planet captive.  I want to bail myself out and solve it the patriarchal way by getting a job or applying for food stamps, instead I have to wait for the universe to rescue me, and she decides how and when this is going to happen.  I have to sweat it out and sit with these energies, there is no escaping them.

We got lost in the dream.  We are energy, not biology.

The Tao Te Ching

Practice non-doing and everything will fall into place.  (3)
Therefore the master takes action by letting things take their course. (64)
Can you remain unmoving till the right action arises by itself? (15)
Less and less do you need to force things until finally you arrive at non-action. (48)
That which has no substance enters where there is no space.  This shows the value of non-action. (43).

Monday, April 11, 2011

The silent observer

I just want to get off the planet.  I understand that we need to lose our minds but how much can one take and how much longer is this going to go on?  The masses haven't even started to wake up.

When perceived problems arise it is easy to fall back to the patriarchal ways of solving them because that's all the mind knows.  The new way of solving problems is to be the silent observer.  That way the problem can dissolve into pure energy.

Things seem to get tougher because the old ways are not working anymore and the new isn't visible but I am already behaving as if I am living in the new world.  This causes great friction and I question my sanity more than ever.  Like Don Quixote with his grandiose imagination I live in a world of my own making, there are no guidelines but I know I can no longer follow the old.

As a silent observer everything is magnified and intense because the mind isn't there to keep me from experiencing it.  I am detached from everything like a stranger arriving on this planet and not fitting in anywhere.

Sunday, April 10, 2011


The universe is stillness.  People fill this stillness with their activities thinking that they are mandatory.  No one is forcing anything on you.  Your misconceptions about how things work are running your life.


Just stop what you are doing.  Illusions will fall away and reality will present itself.  Illusion will keep you busy and up to your neck in problems.  Illusion requires maintenance, reality is presence.
If you want your life to work you have to enter into the stillness.

Friday, April 8, 2011

Standing still while moving at warp speed

The road ends

The universe must love paradoxes.  Everything is moving at breathtaking speed while physically I am standing still.  Like a drop of water suspended in air with vast energies racing around it.

I am getting knocked off constantly.   My mind is trying to grasp this but it can't.  So the best thing is to let go of everything.  I clearly landed in a new space.   Everything is functioning at a different level.  I came to the end of the road and I no longer need a road.

Thursday, April 7, 2011

The Abyss

When the mind is gone there is only one thing left, the Abyss.

I hate this, but the universe has no choice, all illusions have to go.  I am being stripped bare.  I have about $50 and 150 Euros.  I just want to scream but I know this is where I am supposed to be.  

I don't know what life without illusions is supposed to look like.  I can't con the universe, there is nowhere to turn but to my own soul.  Everything is changing faster and more profoundly.  There is NOTHING to hold on to.  I am a breath away from death by heart attack.

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Freedom, a.k.a. Leaving the tribe

When everybody wants a piece of you and you give it to them you keep the illusion alive.  We are whole and nobody needs us.

The mind is a prison.  The moment you use the mind other than for entertainment you are no longer free.  Live becomes a complicated web and now you have to keep track of it.

Education and freedom don't go together.

If you do what you want you are still not free because you are patterned, you have been told what you are supposed to want.  

We have to leave the illusion.

Things are getting stranger and its happening faster.  I still do the same things but I feel like I am in a different dimension.  Every day I go through tremendous shifts. When I ask for direction I always get the same response: "Be still, do nothing."  By doing nothing I don't bring old energies into my space.  Everything is moving at tremendous speed.  The moment I do something I slow it all down.  So I keep my activities to a minimum.

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

No illusions allowed in the new world

Live doesn't require any thinking only relaxing into this moment, breathing fully.  When I have managed my breath the next step shows up.

I always have more than what I need.  My mind will tell me otherwise, but I am not listening.  With every experience I tune out my mind more and more.  The mind is a liar, it doesn't have a correct representation of what's going on.

If you realize that you have enough, you are truly rich.  (Tao Te Ching, translated by S. Mitchell)

People are tired and weary of their senseless struggles, but we cannot take any illusions with us into the new world.  We are the freedom fighters by experiencing and transmuting the horrors that have taken place over the ages.  Its like sorting through piles of debris, only its not a physical pile.  By feeling the energies they are being transmuted, there is no doing required.  Any acting upon them will only prolong them.  We are the ones who get to experience all the fears and there is no one who will save us.  We have to walk through them.

Monday, April 4, 2011

Why I quit my job

The boss is telling me what to do.  
Her mind wants to direct my body to get things done.
Not even my mind gets to direct my body.
My body directs itself.  My body is always where its supposed to be.
My mind follows my body and not the other way around.
My body feels heavy when the mind is in charge.  It won't carry illusion.

I couldn't tell them the real reason for quitting my job because they don't understand this paradox:

Do nothing and accomplish everything.  (Tao Te Ching, translated by S. Mitchell).

Society still believes that working hard is the road to success, which creates a very small world, one in which they can be in control.  In their world of illusion it is insane to do nothing and therefore they would label me insane if they knew what is driving me.

In the world of illusion that which is sane appears insane and that which is insane appears sane.  On my road to sanity I see these things and I don't get sucked into living the patriarchal way.

The force in the world of illusion is ignorance, it will sweep you away.  The force of stillness carries great wisdom.

Sunday, April 3, 2011

I live in space

99.99% is empty space and only .01% is matter.  But people live as if 99.99% is matter because their fearful minds keep them incredibly busy.  They don't perceive that there is that much space.  They are being pounded by their mind continually.  

The body is always in the present moment but the mind is all over.  There is incongruency, the body and mind aren't lining up and that's why lives are messy.  The mind forces the body to rush around and the body doesn't put up with it and will make you sick.

I always go inside first before I go out.  We were forced to go out first and were never allowed to go inside.  Learning to go inside is painstaking, a ride through hell.  Many people don't know that they have to go inside, its a place they don't trust.  Everything in society is geared to keep us from going inside.

Saturday, April 2, 2011

Rushing into action

The patriarchal ways are all about rushing, forcing and pushing.  There is no wisdom.  I couldn't even quit my job without them giving me the 3rd degree, they didn't want me to leave and tried to coax me into staying.  Just because I am good at something doesn't mean I have to keep doing it.

I am going to move very soon.  Where, I don't know.  That's the adventure.  When I am done the next thing shows up and I never know what it is, its always a surprise.  It is up to me to discern when it is time to quit, fear can keep me lingering longer than necessary.  People will try to prevent me from moving on.  I always have to quit first before the next thing shows up, otherwise quitting would be easy.  I always have to jump into the unknown.

The Tao Te Ching
64.  Rushing into action, you fail.
Trying to grasp things, you lose them.
Forcing a project to completion,
you ruin what was almost ripe.

Therefore the Master takes action
by letting things take their course.
He remains as calm
at the end as at the beginning.
The Tao Te Ching   translated by S. Mitchell

Friday, April 1, 2011

Wild Horses

People are acting on their fears instead of observing.  They are driven by their minds.  They don't understand that you have to let go of everything continually, never holding onto anything.  But they keep holding on so that the next moment will look the same as the moment before and that the future will turn out the way they planned.

My mind is like a wild horse throwing off everything that was put on me by the people at my job.  I joined their world of illusion because they cannot comprehend my world for it is inaccessible to the mind.  I became one of them.   And now I am free again.  I quit my sales job.  

I was there 4 weeks and already the managers had visions that I was going to make them wealthy.  Their minds were projecting a future that included me and all the sales I was going to make for them.  That's what happens when you aren't present, their minds filled in the blanks with a future that doesn't exist.  And now it's up to me to explain to them why I am leaving such a bright future behind.  They won't be able to comprehend what I have to say, because if they could their lives would reflect that.

It's time to move on.